I tried posting this..must not have worked.

Our 20th anniversary is Aug. 29th.

If you have read my posts, I am going thru the spy 101 phase.

he keeps asking me what I want, what we should do...and I do not give a crap.

The last 3 yrs have been a huge disappointment. If I don't get my hopes up, I can't be let down (yet again)

Suggestions please on how to respond to him when he asks me.

Ii want the day to come and go with little fanfare (seriously)

I am more interested in working on ME right now (I am joining a new social club, etc).

I just want this day to come and go like I said.