Hi RS,
Is there a sort of timeline for remorse? Does remorse hit the WS right away or does it slowly creep in?
For me, it came very slowly. It took me a while to make our M a "safe" place for Mrs. RIF... up until I realized this, I would bombard her with questions, I would pout, I would stomp my feet and lay down on the floor and start screaming... (I wouldn't really do that, but I sure felt like it!)
Once I started respecting her as my W, and not seeing her as some monster that had 'destroyed' my life, she slowly started to learn to trust that she would be safe in answering my questions... that in turn helped me process my pain and start rebuilding.
Here are some 'signs' that let me know that Mrs. RIF was remorsefull:
* Mrs. RIF came up to me one day and said "I remembered the answer to on of your questions and I'm ready to tell you..."
* She stopped being defensive when I would tell her that I had a trigger that bothered me.
* She wouldn't get that "glazed over" look in her eyes when I would mention the word affair or adultery.
* She would squeeze my hand and hug me if we were watching a movie and a scene involving adultery came up.
* She started telling me that she loved me.
* She started telling me that she was proud of me.
* She thanked me for "putting up" with her.
I honestly don't believe that we would have ever gotten to this point if I hadn't been willing to put my own "feelings" aside and try to love her unconditionally.
Mrs. RIF needed to know that my love was unconditional before she could trust her own heart to even begin to ask for my forgiveness... This is a hard step to take, and it's a lot to ask of a BH or BW, but IMHO, it's a critical step in the rebuilding process.
I personally know how frustrating it is to give and give and give and get absolutely NOTHING in return. It hurts deeply and it seems like it will never end. If you are both committed to the M, and willing to work through the issues, then for now, just recognize that YOU are the one that is going to have to carry you both along the rebuilding path for a while... eventually, your W will join you.
Semper Fi,
RIF