Haven't posted much this summer, been busy, real busy!!!!

But out of the blue and I mean totally out of the blue bowling guy shows up in my yard last night as my dad and I are working on daughters car that I broke while she is with her dad!!!

I haven't seen this guy since May, he was dating someone and I didn't think it was approperiate for us to communicate, and without the bowling we don't have much reason to see each other.

I have talked myself out of pursuing a relationship with this guy as we are good friends and I would hate to screw that up, and then boom he shows up. UGH!!!

My thinker is going why? Is there to be something more? I don't like waiting!!!

I really missed visiting with him and didn't realize that til after he left last night, we sat and drank ice tea and talked for 2 + hours.

I did e mail him this morning as I needed some addresses from him and will leave it at that for now!!! What do you think?

Dawn <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/laugh.gif" alt="" />

Sounds like he's on the outs with the lady he was dating. Or he's no longer dating her.

We talked about the lady friend and the relationship going south!

Perhaps I am the person that he was comfortable talking to about that!

I just wonder if there is to be something more then the friendship?

Dawn

Sounds like it. Keep us updated. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />

Sounds like he's fishing, not bowling!

I would just be hesitant (if I were you...) to be his sounding board about the badness of the relationship.

Wouldn't we all hope that our SO's would come to US to discuss problems instead of finding someone of the opposite sex to discuss it with? Personally that is what I would encourage him to do...

If its just "going south" and not over, its not appropriate IMO, for him to be talking to you about it...

Lexxy

It's over that I know she called it quits.

I am being very cautious, we didn't talk about the relationship that much, talked about life and kids, it never seems to go beyond that. I've never indicated that I want it to go beyond the friendship, I guess I want him to instigate that and not for me to lead there.

I haven't talked to him all summer as I didn't think it was approperiate with him dating someone else.

I think maybe in someways I am just lonely for companionship and I have a form of that with him, but I guess I want more! But am scared and want him to instigate it, goes back to the x saying that I pursued him.

Dawn

Hey, my summer project got done and I have a beautiful family/great room and a seperate dining room now!!! So that's a good thing in my life!!!!

daybreak, i just wanted to say that you crack me up! <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" />

mlhb

mlhb!!!

I am glad that I can oblige you in the crack up area!!!!

I figure there always has to be something good to see in everything!!!!

Dawn

well dawn, i am "cracking at the seams" anyway so what's a few more crax... ? <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/tongue.gif" alt="" />

hehe

mlhb

Well mlhb,

I've done cracked!!!!

I am a single mom and grandma that has her son and DIL along with a 3 month old baby living in the basement. I love the show Reba and can relate to it in so many ways, but have found that it's not ok to make fun of DILs like Reba can a SIL, they cry!!!!

My OD is divorced, pregnant and has two little guys 3yo and 20 months.

My YD is with her dad til Monday when he brings her home.

I live across the street from my parents. I have a brother that was diganosed with MS recently.

I work at school and have the summers off so thought that it would be a great time to turn the back 15 feet of my garage into a family/great room. So for 4-6 hours every day for 2 months I worked with my dad finishing this room, now remember all those other people that I mentioned above, well they all tramped through the work site at least once or twice a day, not to mention the noisey neighbors coming by. Dad and I would stop work about 2:30 every day as the 2 oldest GSS would come so that I could take care of them while their mom works a swing shift. Oh yeah for 3 weeks it was a 100+ outside.

I didn't mention the 16 kids that I took camping for 3 days did I? or the junior bowling league I ran on Monday nights.

So you see I must keep a good outlook or all of the above could really get me down!!!

I think the biggest thing that gets me though is even with all of that going on I am a very lonely person. I just want someone to care about me and want the best for me and from me, just cuz they do, not because they are family and need that from me or for me!!! And I am not finding that so then I wonder what my flaw is!!!

Anyways the timer is going off and I have to go rinse the color off my hair so that the grey isn't as prevaliant, but hey if I sit longer here I might see what happens when color stays on your hair too long!!!!

Have a great weekend all!!!!

Dawn

Dawn,

I got tired just reading your post! You are a busy lady!!!

On the bright side, all that activity will certainly keep you young. LOL

I love my life and all that is going on in it!

I just didn't see myself doing all of this alone, I feel cheated/robbed. I crave that special companionship and the sharing that comes with that. I just feel let down in life sometimes, so then I try to be everything for everyone else!!! So I keep busy!!!!

Dawn

My friend called on Sunday to see if I wanted to go bowling and I wasn't home.

Couldn't of went as the bowling alley was closed.

But he called me, so am not sure were that might go.

I did talk with him today as he is Vol fireman and there was lots of smoke in our area today, but was coming from a fire in Montana.

I am inviting the xH and his wife for dinner tomorrow night with all of the kids.

He just dropped off YD from road trip back from FL. I did not visit with either one of them, so will see what tomorrow brings.

Had a great first day back to school, today!!!!

Always looking from the bright side of things!!!!

Dawn

Had meeting to night for youth bowling and bowling guy said that yes he would bowl with me on a Sunday night league. Yippee!!!

Was talking to him on the phone later as we had some things to work on from meeting and I made comment that Blue's Traveler was going to be in Deadwood and he asked when, said that I wasn't sure but was planning on going, he said yeah I really like that music. I am a country listener and he is a rock listener and he takes my YD to concerts with him and his son, so it was fun finding that we both like blues/jazz music!!!

We are to go bowling tomorrow night if the fire meeting is done in time!!!

So will see where things go from here!!!!

Dawn

I got on the back of the motorcycle tonight and went for about 5 miles, I was ready to go further but we knew that my folks, kids and grandkids were all waiting in the driveway for our return!!!

This was something way out of my comfort zone that I've been trying to do for almost 2 years.

I had attended a leadership workshop and was to do something outside of my comfort zone, my first thing was to talk to x's new wife (OW) and offer my forgiveness, she refused to talk to me, then. She came to my house two weeks ago for dinner!!!! And now the motorcycle ride!!!

Watch out what's gonna be next?

The motorcycle was pretty fun and wanted to go again but it was dark!!! Kevin asked if I trusted him as we were pulling way from the driveway and I said "I am on here aren't I?"

Dawn <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" />

Heck yeah Dawn! You are on there all right! That bowling guy probably can't believe how lucky he is that he found someone as cool and as active and as positive as you are right under his nose! Good luck, it sounds like you really deserve it!

I have a bunch of male friends and none of them want a GF who sits around all the time. Harley seems dead on w/his comments about RC. It's one of my top ENs and maybe yours too?

Keep us posted!

Dawn!!!

Awesome!!!

You have such a positive energy -- and that is so magnetic!

Thanks for the positive feedback!!!!

I had a pity party last night and really need the positive today so thank you!!!!

Have you ever wondered why it is if you are so full of life, energy so on and so forth, that no one is attracted to you, I am having a hard time not being loved in that special way!!!!! It hurts!

Dawn

UGH!!!!

I stopped tonight on the way home at the bar, as I seen the vol fire peoples vehicles and I knew that they had had a meeting, bowling guy was there and I was coming from a bowling meeting. I've never done this before so he was pretty much blown away when I walked in.

He asked what was up and I said I just needed to vent, it had been that kind of a meeting.

So sat down between him and Teresa, I know that Teresa has hit on him before as he has told me this, and he kind of snickers. (Something I don't want people to do about me, so am very careful about flirting) I didn't know anyone else at the table but visited with them all was paid some interest by the guy on the other side of bowling guy.

Teresa said something about bowling guy dating and I said "yeah my kids can't even find me a date but they know who it is I should marry!" She said "who Kevin?" I wouldn't say I just smiled! I said "nah we are just buddies, besides our kids don't get along they fight like siblings." She said, "buddies are the best to marry." So now I know that will make it's way back to him soon.

My daughter called my cell about this time, kids and timing!!!

Somehow a remark was made by bowling guy or Teresa about me being mean, and I always joke that I am the ISS lady and am paid to be that way!!! I do have a very loud directive voice , I work very hard at keeping that under control. I am a Leo! I read something the other day about Leo's that described me to a T, that bowling guy sent me! But bowling guy said something about me having this tone in my voice and that I went off on someone one night at the bowling alley 4 years ago, he can remember the details of it and I can't. It was the only time that I have went off on somebody in the 6 years that I have lived here. He said it kind of jokingly, but as I walked out the door I had to wonder do I scare people that way? I asked if the guy had it coming and he said oh yes he did.

But I have wondered if I intimidate people without knowing that I do it, I don't mean to do it that's for sure! I am basically a very strong independent lady, I take car of myself, my kids, my house and a handful of other things, does that scare guys off????

Teresa got ready to leave and she walked over to the guy next to bowling guy and gave him some sugar before leaving, and he looked a little disgusted, and then said to bowling guy, "jealous?" No was the answer, and I slapped him on the shoulder for being mean!

I called bowling guy when I got home and said "so I have a tone in my voice?" He just laughed and we talked about some other stuff and then one of the kids walked in, so we said good night as he has to be up for work @ 4:30, I said wow that's early, don't call me that early!!!

I don't know I wish I was more forward sometimes, or that someone would take the lead in this dance. I love the friendship and don't want to risk that, but then have been thinking of that word "Trust" alot since Monday nights ride.

I've done a lot of praying and thinking, progress with this or..... and I don't know what that is I just don't want it to consume so much of my time!!! Thinking, wondering!


UGH!!!! Insights anyone? How do I be more forward and keep the friendship intake? I just always go back to what the x said about me pursing him and it bothers me!!!


UGH!!!!!

Good night, share your thoughts with me please!!!!

Dawn:)

I don't know, Dawn. You don't scare me, but...

It could be your friend wants to be more than friends, but is worried about your friendship. Could Teresa have been feeling you out for him?

Small towns can be like a refined version of high-school. I think they have to be because we can't get away from people. And if you have to see someone for the rest of your life, you want to avoid any awkwardness.

Maybe next time you ride on his bike, jump off and give him a big kiss on the lips. Or forget to let go when he stops the bike. "Ooops. Am I still holding on to you?"

And gosh, doesn't every girl want a fireman to rescue her? LOL.