I feel like venting: I was having a bad morning. Plan A is sooooo hard. On his way to work he tells me goodbye, I sweetly ask "No kiss?" He pauses (hesitates), grins, and then gives me a red-headed stepchild brother/sister kiss on the cheek....WHAT??!!...I bared he's two kids...how dare he. I mean yes if he doesnt love me enough to wanna kiss me its not his fault because that honestly how he feels...I admit that our entire marriage has been love busters and No ENs but ...but that kiss hurt. I love him but you could tell it was forced. And it wasn't even on the mouth. A lot of days I wonder what's the point. Is this man too far gone? Its been 10 days with NC with her...I'm proud of him. But I'm sick of him thinking about her....grrrr (I can tell-withdrawals). I wish instead of deciding to come home he would have decided to be with her....that way when it ended (like affair relationships usually do) he would have seen that she ain't sh*t. but this way, he still thinks she's great, and he still loves her and her he. He says it was bad timely, if only we weren't married (together) at the time. If only he dated her some other time. He's such a jerk.

But being on this forum really makes me feel better. Just talking and telling others how I feel and that I am not alone. Thanks MB posters!!!!!!!!!!