STRONGER
BY: MISHES SEPTEMBER 2007





I AM STRONG
I AM GETTING STRONGER EVERYDAY WITH EACH BABY STEP I TAKE
I THINK I CAN DO THIS
I WILL TRY TO DO THIS
I AM DOING THIS

I AM SCARED
I AM SCARED BUT I AM MORE SCARED OF NOT KNOWING
THE STRONGER I GET THE LESS SCARED I AM
THE STRONGER I GET THE LESS I NEED OR WANT TO KNOW
I WILL MAKE MISTAKES AND THERE WILL BE MANY SCAREY DAYS AHEAD OF ME...BUT NO SCARRIER THAN YESTERDAY WAS AND NO SCARIER THAN THE NEXT STORMY DAY THAT COMES MY WAY.

I CANT TRUST
I WILL TRY TO TRUST
I WILL LEARN TO TRUST MYSELF
THE STRONGER I GET THE MORE I WILL LEARN TO TRUST OTHERS AGAIN
THE STRONGER I GET THE MORE I WILL REALIZE THAT THERE ARE THOSE I CAN TRUST WITH MYSELF AND MAYBE SOMEDAY WITH MY HEART.

I DONT WANT TO LOVE YOU
THE STRONGER I GET THE MORE I WILL REALIZE THIS
THE STRONGER I GET THE EASIER IT WILL BE TO LOOK IN YOUR EYES AND FEEL NOTHNG
THE STRONGER I GET THE EASIER IT MAY BE TO THINK OF THESE TWENTY YEARS AS JUST A FOG OF REMEMBERING WHEN
THE STRONGER I GET I WILL PUT THE PIECES OF MY HEART BACK TOGETHER

I DONT WANT TO BE STRONG
I WANT YOU HERE TO HOLD MY HAND WHEN I AM SCARED
I WANT TO BE THERE TO HOLD YOUR HAND WHEN YOU ARE SCARED
I WANT TO TRUST YOU WHEN YOU LET GO OF MY HAND
I WANT TO LOVE YOU AND I SO WANT YOU TO LOVE ME
I DO LOVE YOU
I WANT TO MEND THE SHATTERED PIECES OF OUR HEARTS AND OF OUR CHILDRENS

I WILL TAKE OFF THESE GLASSES OF DENIAL
THE STRONGER I GET THE EASIER IT WILL BE TO TAKE OFF THE GLASSES AND SEE THROUGH THIS FOG OF DENIAL
THE STRONGER I GET THE HURT, AND BITTERNESS WILL FADE AND THE BRIGHTNESS OF TRUTH WILL GUIDE ME DOWN THIS NEW PATH THAT I AM BEING FORCED TO TAKE

I WANT TO PRAY
I WANT THE ANSWERS TO MY PRAYERS TO COME TRUE AS THEY DID WHEN YOU CAME INTO MY LIFE TWENTY YEARS AGO.
I WANT TO KNOW WHAT THE LESSON IS HERE
I WANT TO KNOW HOW YOU CAN LOVE SO MUCH BUT ITS STILL NOT ENOUGH
I WANT TO KNOW HOW YOU CAN PRAY SO LONG AND SO HARD YET THERE IS NO ANSWER.

I WANT TO BE STRONG
I WANT TO TAKE WHAT IS LEFT OF ME, AND MY HEART AND PACK IT AWAY NEVER TO BE HURT LIKE THIS AGAIN

I WILL BE STRONG
I WONT BE SCARED
I WILL TRUST
I WILL HOLD A HAND AND HEART AGAIN AND KNOW IT REALLY IS MINE
I WILL TAKE THIS PATH I AM FORCED TO TAKE WITHOUT YOU, AND THE FOG WILL FADE AND THE SUN WILL SHINE AGAIN

I WILL PRAY
I WILL PRAY FOR STREGNTH
I WLL PRAY NOT TO BE BITTER
I WILL PRAY TO BE THE EXAMPLE TO MY CHILDREN NOT THE PAIN

I WILL PRAY FOR YOU.