Thank you to all of you here at MB.
Believer, LG, et al. You have really helped me through the worst experience of my life.... and hopefully nothing like it will hapen again.
It has been a couple of months since I last posted here, and things have been excellent for me.
WH has sent a friend snooping to find out if I am "interested" in trying again. My answer was, "no." It took a bit of time, but I started to see me WH for what he really is. Love is completely blind, and some things from the past started to add up for me.
This is NOT the first "affair" he has had. The first was 4 years ago. He came home and told me he wanted a divorce. I was in shock.... cried, asked why, etc. He told me he just didn't feel like he loved me. I begged, pleaded, etc. After a bit of time talking, he agreed that he was "messed up" and that we could work things out.
Life was good after that. Until March... when I found out about his month long affair.
September 1 would have been my 5th wedding anniversary. It was a great day. Spent with friends and family. The only thoughts of WH came when I ran into one of the "affair friends" at the bar I spent the evening at. Her shock and surprise to see me so happy were enough for me. (this was the woman that introduced WH to her "friend" the OW) When she WAVED at me.... I WAVED back, with a huge grin on my face. Because I knew, WH would be the first person to know about this. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />
Had a ball tournament this past weekend. My team ended up playing WH's team. I hadn't seen him in a couple of months.. and he is looking rough. *chuckles* He came and stood beside me at the field while I was chatting with some of his teammates before the game. I glanced up at him, smiled and walked away.
During the game, he stood less than two feet from me (cause I catch) and ignored the umpire as he said hello to him. Umpire wouldn't start play until he got WH's attention, and WH replied.... "Oh, sorry... got something on my mind." I LAUGHED, which resulted in a glare from WH.
After he hit, I turned to umpire and said, "Sorry, he won't be talking much to you as long as I stand here." Umpire looked at me all perplexed for a few seconds then said.... "Ohhhhhhhh. Right! I completely forgot!" (we were the talk of the field this year) He then added something about me "breaking WH's heart" and we chuckled.
Divorce will proceed uncontested after a years separation. It has been over 6 months already. Time kinda flies... even when you think it is dragging on.
My life is peaceful now. I have learned who my friends are (and lost some along the way...) I have also made new friends. And have new people in my life that I simply adore. I never thought I would say that I am glad this has happened.... but I am.
God works in mysterious ways... and I am thankful for the path He has now laid out for me.
