So I saw the Lawyer regarding my criminal charges. She can't garuantee but feels pretty confident the charges will be dropped.... after all the paperwork I gave her, told her the story, and from the stuff she already knew. But wants me prepared anyway.
She can't come to the RO hearing with my Friday, she's a court appoint attorney for the criminal charges. But advises me not to discuss the charges in this hearing. She's also fairly confident that the Ro will be dismissed.
Low and behold, I get back to my office and i have yet another email form my wife. For all the people who thinkI'm hiding something... here's her side of the story. the only edits I make here are to remove names...
Subject: Information/Paperwork
I thought about contacting you for hours...after you dropped off the note and article links.
My DR still says there is no way my diagnosis is a result of anything other than unprotected sex (even oral) with an infected person.
Yesterday at my appointment I asked what the chances are that this was dormant in me for years and the answer was a resounding no. I have had these routine tests every year since I was 18 and on the pill. (they had all my medical records) Results are always negative and my reproductive organs show no signs of damage. I still had negative tests after we were married until now.
Can you truly imagine the hurt? The frustration and anger?
Knowing that I am now at risk for pre-term labor with this baby is all that more unnerving.
You and I were not happy. We fought all the time...and for me it was out of frustration with all that you were doing.
You were not spending time with me...your wife. You spent hours online...I was obvioulsy not enough.
I want to trust you. I want to believe you did not cheat. But too many things don't make sense.
Imagine the sheer devastation...while I am carrying your child.
I hope that you are gut wrenchingly honest with yourself if no one else.
If we had gone to counseling the last time we split, perhaps we would not be where we are today.
I am sorry for all that you are going through, but in many ways it is nothing compared to the ****** I am in right now.
With all that said, I believe you are a man with issues...but nevertheless a good man. I do not wish to see you spend time in jail for something that was said in anger.
We'll need to talk when you are beyond your court date and the bail conditions no longer apply. To figure out where to go from here and what is best for our son and the baby. I still love you and I always will. I just don't know if there can be a future for our family.
I wish you nothing but love and happiness.
(PS - I'll send the EZPass transponder since you removed my car anyway.)
L
So right there she has taken away her alibi I gave to her. She says that, according to her Dr, she got thsi STD recently. And as my tests are negative... what does that mean???
Now...sadly, I think I might do a peternal test on my son. though if I find out I'm not his biological father, I will be devistated. I will still love him as much as I do now, nothing between he and I will change. But the relationiship I have with my wife.... oh my goodness.
She doesn't go into detail about her side of the story, but I think you can see from this email I'm not omitting anything.
I'm hopefull from this email that the RO will be lifted and I can go home Friday.
Regardless of what happened int he past, being away from my family for over a week HAS OPENED MY EYES, that she's not at fault, WE ARE. I know I have some things I can work on, and if givent he opportunity to, I think we can work through this. For the children's sake at least. And build from there.
I hope she hasn't cheated on me. I hope I'm not that gullible. If she did, then I am not giving her what she needs, I'll find out what that is and make sure she doesn't feel the need to go find it elsewhere.
Put simply, I love her.
