Thanks Bellevue. I pray you are right. And you may very well be right on the money because of the following, which I forgot to share:

When this whole thing started, or rather when I found confirmation of the A, something inside of me was telling me that we were going to make it through this okay, even though I was so devastated. It was more than mere optimism and I still don't know why I felt this. I had forgotten about this in all of the excitement of the last couple of days.

A voice inside telling me that we would make it through. I told my sister about this when I went to stay with her a few days after the confirmation of the A.

And it stayed with me. Sometimes I would forget about it but it would come back to me again.

I'm not sure what to make of it. Maybe I'm just full of it. Maybe it was a voice from above. I don't know for sure. Maybe I never will know.

Maybe it's what directed me here to all of you wonderful, loving people who have been so kind to help me out.

Thanks a million again! I can't say, "Thank you" enough to you great folks!

Chatlotte, if you are in such fear for your own safety, there must be reasons for that. So, stay away from him physically and if he wants to communicate, he can do it by calling you.

Charlotte22,

You are doing a great job. Keep up the good work.

-LE

Hey Charlotte - I'll be here on the Night-Shift... I can't add a thing to the great advice you're already getting, but I wanted you to know that I'll be around if you need to talk...

Semper Fi,

RIF

Awwww RIF - you're a good guy.

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Hey LE and RIF, thank you!!!!!

I'll probably be around. I have a good idea I won't sleep much tonight. Too wired. No sign of H at any of the hotels. I feel better.

You've really had an exciting last couple of days. I hope you will pamper yourself tonight. Give yourself a BIG pat on the back, and try to relax a little.

I remember the horrible sleepless nights, the inability to eat, and the constant obsessing. It was awful. But even though I ended up divorced, I'm happy again. You'll get there too.

Hi believer. Thank you.

I had such bad nights at the start of this. And bad days, thinking H was going to run off while I was taking care of my grandma. That he was going to go home and grab crap and just take off.

That's because of what I read when I was monitoring at the beginning.

"She" was talking about the "plans" re: renting a u-haul and running away to Colorado. There were a couple of other scenarios but I don't remember what they were. At that time, I know H had taken some DVD's and stsshed them at work. I commented on this, that we seemed to be missing some, and he reported to her about what I said.

I think he was telling her what happened when he left his first wife and her reaction. She totally trashed his stuff and threw most of it out in the garbage. Photos and negatives (one of his hobbies) and everything else. That he could even THINK I would DO something like that brought me even lower than I already was.

I didn't care about the dvd's, (except maybe the Planet of the Apes collection <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" /> ) just the fact that he stashed some at work. So I was extremely paranoid. I couldn't let on that I knew so I was careful when I brought up that I knew we were missing some but it was SO OBVIOUS, I didn't think I had to worry. He had some BS story about copying them for people, etc.

Well, obviously he knows that I am past that now, he knows I was afraid he would leave. I knew what I had to do and knew this would likely cause that to happen but I couldn't let that stop me.

So here I am now. I'm not missing him real bad yet because I am angry about the manipulation and need to take care of this area. And I don't want to see him right now in his present condition.

So I'm good right now.

Hey Charlotte,

You're welcome! <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/laugh.gif" alt="" />

Please do try and get some rest... I know how hard it is when your emotions are high and there are a lot of 'unknowns'...

The good thing in this is that you have a pretty good idea of what's going on. Most WS will stay pretty close to the "WS Script", and that's what all of the great advice you're getting is coming from... these people have lived it and know what they're talking about.

You did a very brave, honorable thing today...

I've got some meetings later on this afternoon, but by that time, there should be some other posters around...

If you're on TX time, I'll be around until about 0200 your time...

Semper Fi,

RIF

Cool, RIF. I am on TX time!


Thanks again!

Hey Charlotte,

My reserve unit is in Houston, so I used to travel down there once a month for drill...

I don't know how anyone can get used to the rush-hour traffic in Houston!

Hey RIF,

Ain't that the truth!

I'm pretty close to Houston. Can get there in less than an hour when the traffic is light. (Whenever THAT is!!)

Goodnight All, hope everyone is doing okay. I'm going to try and sleep now.

Good night Charlotte...

I've got to head out for my meeting... I'll check back with you later on tomorrow (this evening for me)...

Semper Fi,

RIF

I just went back the bank to double check the lobby hours.

On the way back I started thinking about our trip to Dallas.
H's AP & her H were also at this Horror Fest. We were in our room and I moved something that was in the way.

Out tumbles a gun in a mauve-colored case. I don't remember the make of the gun, but it was an automatic.

I asked H about this and he had some excuse for it, he was keeping it for her for some reason. Why? Both AP & her H are registered owners, licensed to carry.

I even asked him later after our return home if he wanted to get rid of me.

Why would I want to do that? H asked.

But I wonder if she was so bent on being with him then, maybe she is crazy enough to have tried to get him to get rid of me for her? He didn't do it. Couldn't push him to do that.

Thank goodness.

I've thought about that gun from time to time and since I remembered it again for some reason, I wanted to share it here.

Charlotte, please be careful, and make an addendum about this in your police report. Make sure WH knows that others know about this incident. I think the other BS should know, in case OW wanted to do him in and have your WH keep the gun for her. This is frightening to say the least!

I have a licsense(sp) to carry, but I'm not supposed to just give my gun out to those who don't. With that permit comes a huge responsibility for the safety of others.

Again, be careful!!! GF

Thanks GF, you're right. That's a GREAT idea.

I will do that after taking care of this issue with the money that H is trying to use to control me.

It won't work. I WILL prevail. He CANNOT control me.

Today I am Spock. Must stay in "Spock" mode, LOGIC...no emotions.

That's right, just kick into that "self preservtion" mode and nothing can stop you! You're doing great and regaining yourself in the process as well as control!! He's gonna have a child's tantrum once he figures out you've had enough. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/eek.gif" alt="" />GF

Wow. This post Bellvue is so true. A thought occured to me while reading it that it may be through actions like these that help those who were always somewhat "wayward" to see how it could, or perhaps better stated as how it should be. It's an example we show to the waywards, and it may cause great changes in them that were not previously there.

Right? I don't know if I'm making sense or am being clear. But it's pretty cool to finally realize that through our actions others are shown a better way, and this may be all it takes for great change.