I am reflecting tonight on our recent past, my actions
the pain I have caused my wonderful husband.
The happiness we have now, the pain we had then.
Words of a song come to me and I feel this is so true
"And I think you should know this
You deserve much better than me"

and he does. Yet he wants ME, it amazes me and I am
so blessed. God I miss him so much right now and I pray,
pray with all my being he is ok

I see so much pain on these boards and sometimes despair
But know this, while you live there is hope and you can find happiness again, even if its not exactly the way you want it or wish it
Never give up and live your life, the gift God has given you as well as you can.

I destroyed a friends world this week. I had to tell her that her husband was not coming home to her and her son.
I had to tell her he was killed in action. I watched as my words destroyed her hopes and dreams of future years, as her soul screamed with her pain.

I don't have any answers, I only know we must keep living the life God gives us the best we can, including the mistakes, sins and remorse, forgiveness and forgiving, all of it.
God I wish my husband could hold me tonight
I wish he could lie to me and tell me it was all going to be ok that he would come home to us
I wish I knew for sure that deep down I did not drive him away, that he would rather be in that ****** then with me
I wish I had not failed him

I wish for the impossible ....


Do not stand at my grave and weep.
I am not there; I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow;
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain;
I am the gentle autumn's rain.

Do not stand at my grave and mourn.
I am not there, I do not die
I live in the memories of my Battalion
I live in the records of the Battle
I live in the hearts of my family and friends.
I am still here; I'll always stay.

Weep not for me because I live on in Honour and Glory
forever and ever


May God guard my husband, all the soldiers from wherever they come, keep them safe, send them home whole and well.
And for all who feel they can't go on, that the pain is too much, may they find strength and comfort in Your love

(((((AW)))))

You and all the other women that have recovered their marriage and continue helping on this board are a truly a blessing. It's a way the Lord shows the rest of us that miracles happen.

I look for posts and am always so proud.

Continued prayers for you and Aussie and your family.

((((aussieswife))))

You and Aussie and his mates are in my prayers each and every day... until we ALL come home.

Semper Fi,

RIF

((AW)) and extra prayers for Aussie and his mates. You too RIF!

{{{AW}}} my prayers are with you and Aussie.