Hi Fled,
So glad to hear from you!! Sound like your busy....3 weekend in a row? Who you piss off?!? Most likely they need the very best...and you're it! I'm not a big elk fan but a patient of mine use to give me elk summer sausage. Yummy!!
Well, plan B? I sorta wimped out for a second and told him that he should stay home while he's in counseling. But he SAYS that he should do what I asked him to do which is to move out. But he's not done anything to make steps to actually move out.
My fear is that with him out it would push him into the OW's arms but I realize that no matter where he is he's still WITH her even if only emotionally. Though I think he is questioning his "love" for her. He can't give me a reassurance that he won't turn to her, he says he has no intentions to do that. But they cont. to work together and she's always asking him How are You? One night he's going to fall off the wagon and she'll be there to catch him. I just don't want to be hurt anymore...you know?
I have chosen to trust that he won't throw me under the bus, but to be honest I don't know if I can.
I do know that he is now having second thoughts about leaving me alone. I have many friends that are single, they have asked me to go with them for years. I have always said that I need to go home to be with my H. But we are all going out on 11/30 to a concert and he's worried about it. Also he thinks that I am interested in someone else, that's the reason I have asked him to move out. I told him there isn't anyone else. But I have to say it does make me feel a little better to see his concern that there maybe another person interested in me. Hee hee.
So at this time, he is still home. He has another session on friday. He said his counselor is kinda confused by why he's seeing her. When she asked him what our relationship is like, he told her that he felt like we have a really good relationship...we get along, have fun together, have great conversation, have the same goals, and other then he doesn't desire me sexually, he can't find anything wrong with our M. She's got her hand full with my H!
He did tell me that maybe part of the reason he turned away from me is cause I was so down on myself but I told him that doesn't make sense cause the OW has even a lower self esteem then I did. He of course didn't have a answer to that.
He's coming out of his fog....slowly but sometimes the fog is still thick.
So that's what's been going on in my part of the woods. And it's been sunny and just down right pleasant, totally not a normal Oct.
Stay warm! <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" />
Tami
