The WAYWARD has to SUFFER..reach the bottom..just like an alcoholic or addict who begins RECOVERY...my H came home a BROKEN MAN...

Hey Mimi,

I was just reading your comment on SL's thread about holding hands.

This is just what it is. My H and I ALWAYS TOLD EACH OTHER WE LOVED EACH OTHER DAILY. We talked on the phone and always hung up saying that. We kissed when we saw each other and most times when we said goodbye.

And we HELD HANDS all the time. We sat on the couch next to each other ALL THE TIME, that is until the A.

Hmmm.. Just an observation....nothing more. Accept I know how much I MISS IT..

You guys did AFFECTION great!! I'm proud of you!!

I called H about two hours ago and invited him to meet me at a park and go walking with me. He said, Oh this won't work for me. I said, not a problem. I am doing to be there at 2:30 and you are welcome to join me if your plans change.

Then I TM telling him that I discovered this salmon hatchery route that I think he might enjoy and wanted to share it with him. I told him I was looking forward to him joining me if it worked out.

It is a gorgeous day here for a walk. I hope he comes, and if he doesn't. It's still a magnificent day. This is why we put up with all the rain.... For days just like this.

<img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" /> Yes we did. There was SO MUCH that WAS GREAT about US.

I have one question. When you surrendered to G-d, did you surrender your husband completely knowing it could be for the rest of your life and you were moving on to build your own life?

YES in answer to your question..but I had FAITH..that whatever would happen would be TO THE GOOD..and to the GLORY of GOD..I had FAITH that GOD was working it out for me.

Then I am so close, because I can believe that as well.

You got it, my friend!

I agree, Mimi.

That's why it's important that we do not remove consequences. Protecting them from consequences enables the affair.

SG,

My FWS and I were the same way. Add weekly date night for the last 12 years to that list, too.

It's all so baffling, isn't it.

Amen, sista!

I think that's what I've been trying to get across in my previous posts...maybe not so clearly.

I agree with that.

SG,

I am glad you see the reality of this. From my own personal experience, you are vulnerable the most when you think you are not vulnerable.

If you kept up with my story (I think you did), you'll remember that I did get involved with someone only weeks before my husband returned home a broken man.

I wish I could say that I kept the faith until the very end...but I cannot.

But one thing does not change...God is still good!

Yes, I totally remember this.

What happened to you that you gave up faith.

Yes he is.

I'm home from my walk. WH didn't show up, but I am talking to him online right now.

What a piece he is sometimes. Evidently his work scheduld has changed and so when I was asking to meet him, he knew that he wouldn't be off at that time. I asked why he didn't mention the new time to me, I would have waited for met him later. NOTHING.

AH the WH is back in full ugliness. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" /> Here we are talking about stuff and out of nowhere he wants to know how the pictures came out yesterday at his lacrosse practice. Unbelievable how selfish and self centered they truly are.

I kept the conversation going as long as possible, but when he was DONE with me he said have a good night. I said yep, you too. And then I said, I miss you lots. rather I miss my H lots. Imagine that, no response....

Then I said just so you know, the walk would have been way nicer with you, Imagine that, no response. Now he isn't talking. LOL

As for the walk, it was amazing and healing. I walked with G-d and surrendered to him. I talked to him about my H and how much I loved him and asked him to keep the pressure on him but take care of him in the end. I just wanted him to come back to G-d. I was crying so hard, but in a good way. I took lots and lots of pictures... and then on the way back I picked up a stick and threw it away. I threw my husband to G-d and he is where is NEEDS to be. There is nothing more for me to do.

I can't say that it isn't sad or I don't hurt. I'm really scared because I need G-d MORE than ever to SHOW ME MY NEW LIFE. But I'm ready to go towards it.

I'm glad I got to come home and see the WH. He IS NOT MY H, and I DON'T LIKE HIM AT ALL.

I could use a couple of hugs even know I know this is what NEEDS to be done, it still is so HARD.....

((((skinsgal))))

(((QUEENIE)))

((((QUEENIE)))

You are SPECIAL and WORTHY!!!

It will be ok, right Mimi. I did the only think I could do for G-d.

I'm ABSOLUTELY POSITIVE that it will be OK.

You will be BLESSED.

Thank you.....