I was scanning though some of these posts, and I'm a little afraid to post this as I am on the opposite side of the fence...but here it goes.
I have been married to my husband for 4 years, we've been together for 8. I love him more than anything in the world, he is my best friend. He recently just got out of a 4 year tour in the army, which was the hardest thing both of us have ever done, but we got out of it strong. He has not found another job and is in a different state doing training for it. I went out with some mutual friends of our last weekend to a bar, just go get out of the house and have some fun. One thing led to another (many bad judgements on my behalf) and I ended up getting really drunk. I barely remember anything that happened that night. The next day my friends came over to inform me that I had been found kissing another man...I was heartbroken. I have no recollection of doing this and this is something that I would never do to my husband. I know being drunk is no excuse, I"m not trying to make it one, but I literally have no idea what happened. I told my husband right away, it was the worst experience of my life. He's been going through different stages, we still talk everyday, sometimes about it, sometimes not. He's still not sure what he wants to do and if we can work this out. I am just so sick and disgusting at myself I dont know what to do. I've barely eaten in a week and if I didn't have to work I doubt I would leave my house. All I can think is that I ruined this great relationship that we had...
I've already sworn off ever drinking again...something I should have done while ago when I realized I had a problem. I'm just not sure what to do. He doens't getback home until January and I dont know how we are supposed to get through this. Any insight would be extremely helpful, and if you feel the need to call me names I accept that too...I deserve it.
Thank you
