Thank you for understanding Mimi...That situation takes me right back to all of the anger, hurt, confusion and rage that I felt in dealing with my dad and his manias beginning when I was 10 years old...I never found a healthy way to deal with that-The last time I ever spoke with my dad he was screaming at me on the phone in a manic rage...No amount of counseling can take all that I experienced completely away I don't think, and I do have a wonderful Christian counselor with vast experience in that area...But it's just too personal and deep...and I need to quit reading her stuff and yet it's almost as though I can't look away...

I just spoke to a dear friend of mine on the phone who reminded me that I needed to completely give this to the Lord...I know that is right...So prayer is where I will take this...

Anyway, I just wanted to let you know that I appreciate you very much...((((Mimi))))

Mrs. W

My heart is right there with you in GRIEVING over your father...

My father died suddenly as an indirect result of his alcoholism which affected me throughout childhood...and still does...

I so understand the TRIGGERS and the GRIEVING...

We are SOULMATES in this regard...

I truly, truly understand....

I know you do and I am so thankful for you...My dad was what they call a "dual diagnosis", as he was an alcoholic too...He drank to try and slow himself down during the manias...which really only resulted in exacerbating his condition...<img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/teary.gif" alt="" />

Thank you again Mimi! <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />

Mrs. W