Hello everyone. I started an EA a little over a year ago. After about 4 months, my W found the cell bill and confronted me. I ended the relationship at that time and my W and I pressed on for a while. Then started it up again only to meet her a month later for a couple of hours. I ended it again. Since then we have spoken on and off about 4-5 times in the last 10 months. My W continues to ask me questions and I tell her it's over with. Recently she discovered an email from her and seen that I had not ended it. After a few talks of divorce, I came clean on everything and filled her in. Although I was surprised, she gave it another chance. Things were great for 2 weeks. I sent out a work email to many folks with the OW on it and she replied in a very formal manner. I questioned why she was so formal with it and it ended a few short lines later. She ended up texting me and my W answered the text to find out that I had not stopped and I lied about the email. Now I have lied to her repeatedly about issues with the OW and don't have a leg to stand on. The bottom line is I love my wife very much and don't want the OW and now my W wants me out. I feel like my world is closing in around me and I have risked her and my son because of a last "reach" to the OW that I don't want to begin with. I've set up for moving out within the next couple of days and an appointment with a counselor (solo) to see if I can get some insight as to why I risked it since I love my wife so much. I'm completely lost and just need some guidance on what to do