I keep coming back here because of the help that I continue to get. I have come clean with the affair and the aspects of it, but I am having a severe problem being honest with anything associated with the affair even when it is something small. My W has given me 3 opportunities to "start over" and now I have let her down. She asked me about a person that knew of the affair and how much they knew. I told her not much. But the more questions she asked, the more information started coming out. I didn't remember some aspects of it and wanted to tell the truth, but felt like I was in a firing squad. After about 15 minutes, it was all out there and now I believe she has given up on me again. I ordered SAA and it should be here Monday. Her ring is off and she told me last night that she don't know where we go from here...I believe that it will be us splitting up and me moving out. I have not contacted the other woman, handed over my cell phone and access to all my documents and email. We came up with a plan for love and a lasting marriage, but it was before this incident yesterday. I've hurt her..AGAIN. Do I just move out and fix me? Do I ask her to help me overcome this, again? How can I after all I have put her through? I love her with all my heart. My mouth speaks the lie before I can tell myself to say the truth. I've gottten in a habit of dishonesty because of the affair and it appears that I am an "avoid trouble liar". I'm losing everything because of my lying. And the thing is that I want to tell the truth..and do on many other occasions. I guess I am on the opposite end of the stick from some others. I had the affair, but want love my family and want to stay, instead of leaving to be with someone else. Please help me...again. I'm starting to understand what's going on, but my body is getting that numb feeling again. I'm 34, she's 31 and lil boy is 4. Been married for almost 5 years with the affair going on for 1 1/2 years.

brian,

This is essentially the same thread you started last night....why not post on that thread? You didn't respond to the people who answered you there. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/confused.gif" alt="" />

Brian, did you read our responses on your other thread?

I wanted to add more information to work off of and hopefully gain more informaton. My apologies for it sounding like the same post. Very little sleep last night and much thinking this morning...not to mention the worry of when she wakes up and what will take place. I read the responses. I guess I am just distrought (?) and looking for any kind of help. My apologies for being redundent

Brian, when you don't respond and interact with people who are trying to help you, pretty soon you will get no responses at all. Folks are trying to help, but they move on pretty quickly when you don't take the line.

So, please respond and try to stick to one thread so folks can follow your story. Thanks <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />

Please keep everything to one thread only. Update your old thread and let this one die. It is very hard to keep up with a poster with three different threads.

t/j to cathy. Whereabouts are you in Houston? I am south of Pearland off 288. Did you know we have some more Houstonions here? BritsBrat and Charlotte are also around here.