Sounds like things are okay then...

EXCEPT for THIS: Maybe it's just me, but I usually like compliments on BOTH of my eyes! <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" /> Perhaps her haircut has bangs that cover one eye though and therefore only is flattering to the one that is showing! <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/pfft.gif" alt="" />

I'll shut up now...<img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/crazy.gif" alt="" />

You are doing good...stay the course!

Mrs. W

Mark -

Your post about worry and fear, keeping our hope and trust in God was awesome! I know you directed it to TMTS, but it was uplifting and encouraging for me as well. Thanks for writing it <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />

TMTS - I apologize for the T/J.

Mrs. W.

You are just too funny. Yes maybe that's the problem... my WW is a Cyclops. LOL

He was referring to the non-wayward eye. . .


don't all groan at once!

Oh man, LMAO <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" /> Thanks for that!

You guys are a TRIP!

I was Wondering (haha) if anyone would catch it!!

Mark, I have also been reading a lot of your posts on other threads and you are just amazing.

Healingbird and Resonance,

Please no accolades tonight if you don't mind. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/blush.gif" alt="" /> I'm only a product of my teachers and parents.

Trust me on this, I am nothing special...

Though maybe "unique" would fit...

Mark (Who, thank God, is one of a kind)

PS TMTS, I see you got my email <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/pfft.gif" alt="" />

Yes, Thank you. Check yours before you go to bed.

I may be old, but I don't go to bed for quite a while yet...

Unless, of course, W comes to get me before I'm sleepy. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" />

Naw, that ain't gonna happen tonight.

Mark

I just chaecked my WW's phone to see if I could find out anything. I saw a message to her friend about getting approved for an appartment. This has become all too real right now, she's going, and I'm dying inside. I was feeling so good, now I know why she so happy, she see her escape. I feel so worthless right now. I hurts.

Feel that pain and remember it. Cry and hold the bible if you can, and then start talking to G-d. Pray to him for support and take the pain away. Ask him to wrap his arms around you and just hold you.

And know that I am here and won't leave and there are so many others here with you as well and we will walk you through this.

What are you doing right now?

Crying, thrying to get my composure back. The reality of it all is really hitting hard.

TMTS,

Let G-d have her.

You need to take care of yourself so you can be there for her when it's time. Mark, what is that scripture about waiting on the lord and I have plans for you?

I don't have the wisdom to tell you what to do at this moment to change what is happening, but I am here, I am praying for you and I believe in your ability to get through this.

You are a good person and G-d has plans for you. Don't give up on yourself, you have fought to come this far. Remember, Plan A was always about YOU, ABOUT YOU BECOMING the best person G-d intended.

We can't have the expectation that what we are doing is havig any effect because the only effect we should be seeing is in us. Remember that. Mimi reminds me of this over and over again. This is SO IMPORTANT.

YOU CAN'T CONTROL HER. You can't FIX HER. But Plan A is something you can do for YOU.

Crying is our souls way of cleasing itself and healing itself. Crying is good. I always feel good after a deep hard cry. ALWAYS. Drained, but better.

Ask G-d to hold you and walk through this with you. Rememeber, you are NOT ALONE, he is RIGHT THERE WITH YOU.

You have everything you need to get through this. You just have to ask G-d to help you find your strength and FAITH. You can get through this. Remember the stupid statement, This Too Shall Pass.

Ok, I don't always believe it, especially when I am caught up in the pain, but it will. Ask G-d to help you. He wants you to become ABSOLUTELY COMPLETELY DEPENDENT ON HIM.

Look at the growth already happening in you. You are feeling the pain, you are talking about it, you are wanting to get through it.

Remember if you stop in ******, you stay in ******.

How are you doing?

I'll be alright. I've know this was comming, but now it's real. I can only plan a now. I will set up a call with Jennifer tomorrow. I need to know when to go to Plan B.

She seems so happy, and that hurts even more. It's like I was a burden on her life.

She is a WS, she is toxic and YUKKY. Just like Mimi says.

She is talking babble. That's what they do, remember it's an addiction. They NEED the fix. It's not about US. It's all about them.

Take care of yourself and protect yourself, but don't pay any attention to what she is doing. That what they DO.

My heart just died. I feel so much pain I feel sick. I don;t know if I can make it through this. My hoplessness was well founded, and now I'm looking at loosing my love forever. I need to go and think, this is just too much.

Thanks for being there.

You might not be able to alone, but you are NOT ALONE. G-d is there TMTS, seek him out. Ask him for help.

I am here and so are others on this board.

Negative thinking IS NOT well founded. It's not G-d thinking, it's letting Satan have control. Fight him. G-d will win if you let him. I know how awful it feels. I DO.

I know what you are thinking. But it will be OK.

You are hurting, every emotion you are feeling is raw. Just hold the bible and pray to G-d, talk to G-d. I would say over and over again, G-d are you here? If you are, please hold me, please love me. I love you G-d. I need you. This is too big for me, please help me get through this. Show me, tell me what to do. I can't do it without you. What is your path for me, what do you need from me.

Give this to G-d and just be quiet. Just keep walking through it.

I am here. For as long as you need.

Think about all the wisdom from Mark, Mrs. W, Mimi, and everyone else. What have they been saying to you. How to walk through this stuff, the pain.

Hear their words. Trust what they say, they are working on G-d behalf. Picture their words in your mind. YOU WILL GET THROUGH THIS..

Remember, I am convinced that one day, this journey of yours will be someone inspiration and hope that they can make it. So learn the lessons so you can pass it on to others. That's how you serve G-d.

Queenie, Thanks for being there, I really appriciate it.
It took your advice and thought of some of the things I have been told... first is breath! I want to die right now... this woman was my whole life, my reason for being now the reality is that I've lost her. I see no future with her in it now. It might be easier to just accept it and skip Plan b and go right to Plan D. then we both move on and let the healling start. First things first though and that's to get through tonight.

I know this thinking will break Marc's heart. sorry bud.