Dday for me was 14 hours before our plane was to take off for a romantic vacation in Costa Rica. We decided to go anyway, and use the time away from all day to day distractions to talk - Well, I asked and he answered. I had pretty well resigned to no SR during the vacation but my hormones got the better of me.

Since DDay, we have had SR more than we did all of 2004 (WH kept count) and it was all Superlative!!!!!

However, five nights ago, we were snuggling at bedtime - something we've made an effort to do every night and he asked me to touch him. I did, but I started to think about the other hands that have touched him "there" and couldn't continue. We have not touched each other in more than an affectionate way (i.e. hugs) since then and I cannot even think about SR without feeling dirty.

How can I get over this? If I can't, there is no hope for the future.

For the record, he has also been a little distant - a behaviour that contributed to our marriage breakdown. He was full of romance and "wooing" behaviour at first, but that has cooled off.

"Hysterical Bonding". Happens quite often it seems. My FWW and I went through that as well. I enjoyed it while it lasted.