I woke up after dreaming all last night about my x-husband and begging him to take me back. These dreams have been going on since we seperated in oct. 04

I acted very selfishly and wish I could change everything. I'm not the person i was acting like when we seperated and divorced. I found out I'm bi-polar and have psychosis, since then. and the doctor had just put me on anti-depressants at the time. it was exectly 2 weeks after I started taking them that I decided to seperate and think about our marriage. before I left I I took on a different personality, and didn't know it then but that person wasn't me. I knew I had had changed, but didn't know why. I couldn't even feel emotional pain through this whole thing b/c of all the meds they kept me on. which the anti-depreseeants made it easy to seperate. I NOW now what anti-depressants do to a bi-polar person. Then it all spiraled out of control. now I'm doing good, still on some meds because I need them. but i KNOW who I am. Am i'm NOT the person he divorced me for. I want my life back. and it hurts because I know he's in a serious relationship and will prolly get married soon. I hate to rain on his parade and happiness. But should I say something to him about all this? he knows nothing. and for some funny reason I keep running into his mom lately. we were actually nice to each other for the first time in a long time and I cried.

My xhusbands user name was baddawg1976. I found everything he wrote on here when I troubles started from google. He was wrong about so much he posted about me and he doesn't even know it.

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It seems he can't trust you and you just can't seem to stay out of bed with strangers.

wait a minute. That stuffr is NOT true! I went off them meds for 3 days. Then after 6 months on them I had to go off b.c of the effects the doctor said. My friends didn't tell me to go off them. and my friends are the best people in the whole world! They dont even drink! My parents love them. It's only him and his wife and I dont associate with anyoe else. and I did not sleep with 4 people within one month! it was 1 person, AFTER he handed me divroce papers.

So he is lying about you having an affair when you moved out?

My own wife thought HER friends were the best in the whole world when they were cheerleading her affair.

She also denied her affiar and accused me of lying about it.

So, you gotta come up with evidence to the contrary.

excuse me. I'm sorry your going thru that. I never lied about having an affair and when I posted my thresd I said I take full responsibility for that. and my friends are my family and my parents love them to. since you dont know them you cant speak for them. if you want their phone number I'll give it to you. you can judge for yourself. just because your wife is lier doesn't mean all woman are lying.

I dont have to come up with any evidnce. I;m not here to talk to you in particular.

I'm sure you have your reality and he has his. Somewhere inbetween lies the truth.

You are now divorced and he is in a serious relationship with someone else. What is your agenda in contacting him now?

Bi-polar or not, it sounds like some of the stuff you 'may' have done could hardly be blamed on medications. Medication does not make you cheat on your husband.

IMO, you should move forward. Leave him to his new life. Keep working on yourself so that if you enter into a relationship of your own, history will not repeat itself.

Correct. That would make YOU the other woman.


Again correct. You've had your fun and NOW you want to go home? You cheated and your BH divorced you. End of story.

Assuming you're sincere, here's a suggestion. Start with a heartfelt, thoughtful, letter of apology to him. Next time you see his mom, give it to her and ask her to pass it on...or if you have his address, put it in the mail.

And make it just an apology, not a request for his return.