I wrote a post earlier but for some reason I cant get in and add to it. If someone could bump it that would be great. So if you have read it then tahank you for your advice. I believe in my marriage. I know that my husband is obviously a serial cheater but I do truly believe he doesnt want to be this way. I do believe if he can confront this issue and want to change that it is possible. We have been together for 10 years. We have a long history of time and amazing memories together. I know most people would think that I am crazy and believe me it has been torchure. There is something inside me that wont let go so I have to believe there is a reason for that. Yes walking away would be the easy way and I have chosen the hard way. I know that and it is probably the worst thing I have ever gone through. 100 times worse than the first or so it feels. I have access to ow email. I dont have access to his because he uses a blackberry. They mostly tex so I cannot access that. This is how I know that they are thinking of meeting again. I know it is not official yet. Funny thing is he said that he wanted to plan a getaway with me after he had his few days off??? I have to hope first of all that some divine intervention will prevent this from even happening or at least if it does it could be the trip he finally says goodbye. I know everyone thinks Im crazy. I have thought that of myself too. I believe in him. For some reason something wont let me give up. I dont know if anyone could understand that or give advice. He has admitted to me that maybe he is just a cheater. I told him I believed he could change or I wouldnt have put myself through 9 months of ****** for him. Believe me it would have been easier to just walk away.