Had enough, Going to plan B.

I Did some more snooping, and got some more evidence of ww love affairs. It blows my mind. In fact, she didn't stop as she promised. I found out last wednesday she took a flight early in the morning (1200 miles) to see him and came home that same day late at night.

She told me she was stuck in a long meeting at work. I wouldn't have never guessed she was 5 states across having a good time with her man at my expense if I didn't choose to track her whereabout. Talk about negative effect of technology (aero dynamic). This is too much for my psyche. I can't take the lies anylonger. She doesn't care about anything, nothing works on her. She enjoys lying to me, because she knows I already know the truth. Her attitude is like " that's what you get for spying on me". She is cruel and never feels sorry about what she's doing. She has zero conscience.

My heart can't take it no more. I'm bleeding profusely inside. It's no longer about me, it's about the kids now. I must protect myself in order to be there for them. The only to do it is to be away from her and do a dark cold plan B. She's never really been without me in her life, this plan B will be her first taste.

Anyone knows the process to select a lawyer?
Can anyone give me a link to a sample letter for plan B?
I appreciate any help, thanks.

Bumping up for some help with the plan B letter.
Because I'm just guessing what it is.

Vets and others, I know ya'll been busy`, but Can anyone please tell me a bit more about the plan B letter, its purpose and characteristics? Thanks.

Must give kudos to Loving4him for a superb and excellent job breaking down plan A/B. Anyone or newbies like myself needing details or a refresher course on plan A/B can find it in the forum entitled "Plan A/B" under 'Guidelines for plans'. Thanks again L4H for taking the time to do this.

Now back to Wayward Wife.

From my last post, remember I was thinking of plan B possibly D. Cuz I failed hopeless and realized that as much as the plan here is,"SAVING MARRIAGES", nevertheless we all know that not all marriages should or can be saved.

When you're dealing with a human being whose sole purpose is to destroy you, watch you suffer and disintegrate right before their eyes, and actually enjoys it, and mocks and laughs at you, and never shows any remorse, whose conscience flees from her moons ago, and as much as I love her, it has turned to a point where one must look at things objectively.

The last thing she did which was lying to me again by telling she went to a training an hour away from home. Truth was she got on an airplane at 5 am, flew accross the contry to her OM, and came home same day late at night. It is extremely expensive to do that, money we don't even have. And yes she bought the ticket with her checkcard, even when she flies him in town and pays for his hotel stay etc... yes all paid by her.

Here's the real drama:

I went out with ww to talk about separation. Even though I have little hope for us, at this time I feel like I have to salvage the little bit of love I have left for her, and protect myself from further disintegration.

I told ww about my plan and the NC with me for life. She FLIPPED, at the thought of NC plan. She turned into this demon and started acting very weird. For a moment I thought it was an act. But then she started driving faster and faster and faster. I asked her to slow down, and said you're gonna kill us both. She started laughing with this weird demonic voice, she sounds exactly like the gal in that demonic movie "Poltegeist".

I asked her to stop and let me out of the car, she drove even faster, laughing louder, and picked up her cell and placed a call to somebody...

It went like this:

ww: Hello, [laugh...] listen, humm... Sco and I going on a little trip... I know I can trust you with the kids, take good care of them... [pause]

ww: oh it'll be a while, just take care of them for me... I have to go... here's my spot, here's my spot...[hang up]

The spot was an overpast. We were getting close to an Overpast about 100 feet deep. I realized then she was gonna kill us both... I started praying, couldn't remember any verses, so I prayed in tongue, preparing my soul thinking that's it, that's the way my life gonna end.

I tried to tell her, don't do this, think of the 4 kids, they have nobody, they will be orphans, they're gonna suffer etc... It didn't matter, she drove even faster, laughing louder.

Then a car came out of nowhere in front of us forcing us to slow down. I opened the door and jumped. She tried to pull me back in, but I managed to get free and took off the opposite way.

Yep, ww tried to kill me and her.

I don't get it, she has a man, she's having all the fun. Why is she so miserable, and hate ger life so much. She claimed she doesn't want me. Why did she flipped and wanted to commit double suicide, when I told her about NC for life? Can anyone chime in? What makes her want to give up on everything, herself, OM, me , life and especially the girls. Why she can't stand the idea of no contact with me for life, or is it something else? All she do is punish and torture me, and I want to get away from that and from her. I don't even know if I can out of this, or how. I feel like I'm trapped.