I am feeling very low this evening. This pain is unbearable. I am very upset

I'm right here Brown... Are you praying, do you have a bible you can pick up and read?

{{{{{{{{{{Brown}}}}}}}}}}}}}

I can't bear to pray.
I can't believe he can accuse me of such things, that was really low.
Especially when she is the one who has done everything unfairly. Is he blind?

Then I will pray for you. Because G-d wants you to seek him... KNOW THAT.

HE WILL PULL YOU THROUGH THIS... I PROMISE YOU.....

Say the serenity prayer
G-d grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change.
The courage to change the things I can
And the wisdom to know the difference.

Stay saying this over and over and over again. And then keep saying it. Scream, hit a pillow, talk to G-d, SCREAM AT HIM....

HE IS AN ADDICT. He ONLY cares about his next FIX. Not about anyone he is hurting. You have to ACCEPT this....

Accepting is hard, he has changed so much and then those moments of kindness and my old H comes out and i want to cry bcos i just want to hug him n take him home.
I hate her so much

STOP THINKING ABOUT HER....

Just accept for TODAY that he IS NOT YOUR HUSBAND. He is a MONSTER.

I KNOW how hard this is... I TRULY, TRULY do...

Have you read my post? There are some awesome prayers in there that helped me through. Want me to find one for you?

Keep saying that prayer. And if today is too hard to accept, do it for one second. Just one second... then another....

Here is one that helped me tremendously....

Ephesians 6:10-18

10 Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11 Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. 12 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 13 Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. 14 Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, 15 and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. 16 In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. 17 Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. 18 And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints.

I can't do it Queenie. I want to ring him n shout at them both. I want to run away from this pain, but there is no where to go, absolutely nowhere.

YES YOU CAN DO THIS.... YOU ARE DOING IT ALREADY....

Breathe.... just breathe.....

It's OK to BE ANGRY...

DO NOT RUN FROM THIS PAIN... My sponsor told me... LISTEN.... Pain won't kill you, it's what you do with the pain that will.

If you stop in the middle of HE!!, where do you end up?

YOU CAN DO THIS.......

Thank you Q, I know u r trying to help, I am going to take some sleeping tablets n go to sleep.
I just need the pain to go away

There are no thank you's necesary. I went through the SAME PAIN, and so MANY ON HERE were with me. They didn't leave me and I won't leave you. We are doing it together. Not me alone, not you alone, but together because G-d is here with us.

What time is it? Do you have safe sleeping pills. Sleep is good. Time will make the pain go away, I HATE THAT STATEMENT.

BEYOND BELIEF, how I HATE that. But I am HERE with YOU and so many others and we will walk through this together, becase I KNOW THIS PAIN. I lived it, I DIDN'T BELIEVE IT COULD EVER GET BETTER, AND IT HAS. IT TRULY has.....

They r safe pills - my doc prescibed them for me - it is quarter past eleven at night over here.
I don't understand why he is throwing it all away, but i need to sleep n stopthinking
I am saying a lil prayer for all of us

GIRL, IF I HAVE TO FLY OUT THERE AND SLAP YOU, you can bet I am going to charge you for the airfare....

Now having lost 87lbs, I really want to try my butt in a seat without a seat extender. Taking me up on it.

Seriously... STOP THINKING OF THIS PERSON AS YOUR HUSBAND, HE ISN'T... HE IS A WAYWARD. SAY IT OVER AND OVER AGAIN UNTIL YOU ABSOLUTELY UNDERSTAND IT.

Your H lives inside, but he isn't in control and you are fighting for HIM....

Prayers... that's my girl... and keep saying that serenity prayer.. and sleep with the bible. I did. There was many a night when I held Torah and the big book.

{{{{{{{{SLEEP WELL my friend}}}}}}}}

browneyes35,

We all her your pain and as a BS I can say that we were all there at one time or another. One does not get their heart ripped out of their chest and somehow not feel the pain.

There were many times I could not bear to pray either. Rather I remember shouted at God for allowing this to happen to our sacred M. In times like these, know that others will pray for you and enteat God's healing and tenderness.

[[[browneyes35}}}

Rest in God's love.

Prayers going up for you!!

All Blessings,
Jerry

Saying this may help...

I love you
I bless you
I forgive you and you forgive me
I am free and you free
I wish for you what I wish for myself
The best that life has to offer

Browneyes - I feel your pain and I'm going through the same thing today. We CAN get through this. It's hard, God do I know that, but we have to just get through day by day.

Bless You.

Thank you everyone. I made it through last night and today i was an emotional wreck the whole day.
I keep on crying and feeling upset. I was like that at work and i just wish god would take me away from all of this

Browneyes,

God will walk you through this. Call on him. He loves you with a love that is bigger than you can ever imagine. One year ago tonight he stayed with me all night while I cried until I threw up then cried some more. Is there a comfort Bible verse that you know? Hold it in your heart. I am praying for you right now.

God's blessings,

Say

I have been there as well.
And you will get through this.
I remember so well, when people would tell me that, and I would think to myself "easy for you to say - you don't know how bad it is"

But here, in this forum, we ALL know how bad it is.
And we all get through it

At first, you get through it 1 hour at a time
then it is 1 day at a time.
I remember counting how many days it had been since my WH had left.
And as time went by, I wasn't counting the days anymore. I was living my life. Days, weeks, months went by.

I have been there - and I am here to tell you that it gets better. My life is FAR better today than it ever was before. I have learned so much about myself, my friends, my family. I am able to relate to people so much better than I ever did before.

I can tell when other people are hurting, and I reach out to them.

Keep reading. find books that help you. Self help books, novels, whatever it takes. Keep yourself busy. Go out to lunch with friends. I KNOW it is hard!!!! But make plans for yourself.

Dear BrownEyes,
I am about 10 weeks into my journey since my WH left me and our children. I am praying for you and know that you will make it just as I will. I chose to re-enroll in college online to give myself something else to concentrate on. We all have to find that thing that we can throw ourselves into totally, and then when we are breaking and don't know what to do we come here and we let it all out and know that there are many others who will come along side of us and love us and encourage us and lift us out of the despair!
This has been the most painful journey that I have ever been forced to walk, and I know that I am only in the beginning of it, but I know what the outcome will be and I keep telling myself that and it makes all the pain worth it! I am being refined and purified so that I can be a servant to another and by my faith and life example I will be blessed and I will be victorious! You can be too, just have faith, and take it one step at a time, even if it is a baby step it is still a step! Keep coming here and keep reading the Bible and seeking God's wisdom and love! I know that it sounds easy, and it isn't but it will get easier.

Praying for you...
KLB