Well folks..

I wasn't going to create a thread over here until I finally embraced the 'done' portion of the program.

Ultimately it just boils down to the last almost year of hanging on, trying to save my M for the sake of my children and what love I have left for my WW.. well, it's a burden I can no longer bear.

The biggest reason I was hanging on for so long was for the children. It's now painfully clear to me that while I'm sure on some level she has a great deal of love for them.. she's so wrapped up in herself and Wonderboy that she's really more or less turned her back on her children. For most that wouldn't be a problem, but as some of you already know I have no access to DSD, and DS was unfortunately placed with her in the Temporary Orders.

Custody eval is in.. favors neither but I feel paints a better picture of me than her, and paints a pretty ugly picture of Wonderboy.

Next step is mediation and then the gavel hits.

I need to start getting a plan for that together..

'done'.. at least that's what my heart is finally telling me.. catching up with my head which has known for a while now that there is nothing to save anymore.

*sigh*

I'm sure it's good company here.. but I hate to be here.

Welcome to the cesspool.

C'mon in, the water's warm.

Yea - divorce is the pits. BUT it also is a chance for peace of mind. The longer I adjust to my marital status the more I reflect on how my XH and I were really incompatible. I love not having to worry about what he's up to, his mood swings, his ugly comments etc. You have to find your silver lining.... hang in there - it all gets better. take care

And just think, when your wife becomes a complete failure and has to resort to dancin on tables, you and a buncha your buddies can go and gawk.

I've been hanging on for about a year myself. And just about a week or so ago, we put our house on the market. This is where my head was doing doing the work, because my living situation was making me ill. At the time I was wishing and hoping (my heart) that maybe, just maybe things would still work out....

And then my WH came home piss drunk. How very unattractive . It reminded me of why I had checked out of the M a few years ago.

I think that evening was an AHA moment for me. Though I do still love this man, maybe this isn't really the right place for me and that it is really time to move on. I think my heart is starting to come around.

Welcome to the club, the D club that is. The water is oddly warm, kinda like at the Jersey Shore...

Thanks for the welcome guys...

I'm just hoping that somehow.. even though I have to deal with her for another 14 years.. I'll be able to find peace in this.


I'll be going to the dioces the week after the legal divorce to seek a release from our sacrimental marriage on the grounds of adultery.

It breaks my heart all over again but that's what's going to have to happen, sadly.

Sorry you are year but don't think of this as an end, but rather a beginning. I know it doesn't feel like it now but soon you will climb out of that bottomless pit. It is brighter on the other side.