I know I love her, I do know I want to be with her, but im just so tired of all the negative feelings I get.
Its amazing when i look at her its like i see 2 different people, one person is the sweet caring mother and wife who is devoted to her family and kids.
Then I see a well just some chick who has no morales or standards who doesnt give a crap less about us or herself which she doesnt act like this now just my point of view from what she has done.

Today she says to me I am new to this i said what she says to when you make a remark to me I am trying my hardest not to be defensive, I think i said the wrong thing back to her by saying Im new to this to having a perfectly good heart and some [censored] ripping it out.
Just wish 2 years would fly by so this can all be fixed and the negative feelings would dwindle.
O well guess its 1 day at a time for along time now. Just sucks

Well, wish I had a magic wand to lend you so this could all disappear like a bad dream. Unfortunately it will take lots of time to recover from her betrayal. People say about two years, but I think it takes even longer.

Try to eliminate the angry outbursts and work on the things that were wrong with the marriage. I know it doesn't seem fair, but is the only way to end up with a marriage that is better than the one before the affair.