Well, Here I am. been married for 5 years. wife is in the military, went on a deployment to kuwait for a year. Left me and the 3 kids behind. Ive been battling depression and other issues for years. My marriage has been rocky from the start. Wife and I have been arguing for years about money, my goals, my depression, etc. Ive had probs holding down a job and basically being what I "know" a responsible adult should be. fast foward to deployment. I was very angry at my wife, because I felt like she was abandoning me and the kids, that she should be able to get out of it. I didnt trust myself to care for the kids on my own. well I said I could do it anyway. because I didnt want to be weak, and I thought maybe Id change. Well not to long after my wife left I started chatting up girls online because I was lonely and my wife and I fought all the time. I also terribly mismanaged money. I talked to several girls online. and on the phone. I even went on a date with one that ended in a kiss. well my wife found out, we fought for days. I gave her my word that I wouldnt talk to anymore women. well things were going okay. I just quit talking to them. but a couple of them were persistant, so instead of doing the right thing I kept talking to them, went to the mall with one, invited same girl to my house. (nothing happened, but It wouldve if it would have been up to me, so its as bad.) well my wife found out, and had her parents take the kids and kicked me out with what I could carry. Now, I certianly do not blame her for it, I diserved for that to happen. my wife and I have talked a few times, but its been mostly arguments about the "fallout" of this (logistics). she has officially seperated from me. she has asked me not to contact her for awhile why she "decides" what she wants to do. I thought of only myself, I was so into my talks, etc. that I let my homelife with the kids collapse. I was so selfish, but its prob too late now. Anyone who is thinking of cheating, its not worth it, GET HELP!
