OK, so yesterday we took our D to grandparents' for a week. I took one of my leftover pills before I went over to the house. Everything was just fine and we were laughing and getting along. Then when we got back to the house, I started up with the questions again about infidelity and she reacted as usual "I'm so sick of this", "I hate you", "What the he11 is wrong with you?", et cetera.

Seems like BIG RED FLAGS all around me - she used the legal system to get me out of house right after I discovered her "friend" on her phone and pestered her about it, which also happened to coincide with our D being away with grandparents.

Also she has said things like "Well if it was okay for you to screw around, why is it not OK for me?" I tell her it was not OK for me to do that, nor for her to do it back in '05. But of course in the past I justified it with the no SF from her thing, so she has that stuck in her head.

Wifey is alone (ostensibly) at home this week, so I have no clue where she is or what she is doing.

I called about getting my medication refilled, but was told I need to be in ongoing therapy. They won't just give me my medication. I don't have money for that, he11, I only make $15 an hour now since this whole thing with her has made me so heartsick that I lost my salary dream job, basically 'cause I had no "apparatus for concerted effort".

She calls the Harley's books "the ones by those crackpots".

Says she doesn't intend on going out and boffing someone.

Says she just needs some peace and doesn't want to discuss it until we go to MC.

I don't get this. This is the most important thing in my life and as far as I'm concerned, it needs to be resolved NOW. Waiting is just making me wanna file a reciprocal PFA and file for no-fault divorce and wait the two years if she won't sign off.

Then other times, I remember she is my precious and that I did mistreat her and I feel so guilty and cry.

I know people are not like machines (I work in IT), but problems do not solve themselves.

Anybody got any samples of Depakote? j/k

I have no insurance until 01 AUG.

The PFA hearing is set for 23 JUL.

My sister and her husband can't be liking me living with them.

I will need to get my own place soon, but where do I get the $$$ from if the PFA vaguely stipulates I owe her "obligation of support"?

The PFA has already awarded her temporary custody of our daughter.

Is this thing on??? tap-tap-tap??? Anybody home???