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Well, unfortunately, whatever am or am not planning I can't post on here because of prying eyes. I completely feel for you. I know what that is like (except fortunately mine didn't start his spying on me till his A was almost over. At that point he was doing it for "damage" control......lol). not2fun
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SIGH! I don't even know what to say right now.
Wife, if you feel like you need to tell everyone my issues, feel free. I have no problem airing out my dirty laundry for everyone to get the full picture. I was far from the perfect husband and father, I will admit that. I've said and done a lot of things in our marriage I feel crappy about.
Neglect?
Yes
Lack of Affection?
Yes
Abuse?
In 9+ years together I've put my hands on her twice and hate myself for both instances. I had one instance with my son a few months ago that I guess can be viewed as abusive, it was was an unfortunate incident and I've apologized to him a million times over for it.
Cheating?
Well, if you're talking about my brief addiction to porn, then yes.
Has cheating ever crossed my mind?
Yes
What all do they need to know? I'm willing to be completely open.
I came here for support in saving my marriage. They are not here to hurt you or make you into a villain. They are here to help BOTH of us regain a marriage and work on it being a happy one forever. Do they look down on affairs? Sure.
You said that you thought I was stronger than this to get involved with a "cult" site like this. The woman I love has admitted an affair, has moved out and taken our son with her. My life has flipped upside down, I miss both you two so much and I'm heartbroken. I don't know how strong you think I can be. I pray to God all the time for strength and, even as hard I try to be stronger, I still find myself with my head in my hands once a day crying over everything that has happened.
I actually feel stronger BECAUSE of this site. I found a place that has hundreds of members who were my exact shoes and came out OK.
Again, I'll suggest to you, your Mom and your Mom's neighbor (who you say all of which think this site is a big joke) to actually read many of the articles and threads on here. Y'all all might get some real insight on some things.
I may have done some dumb things the last few months (lie, etc) but I did everything with only one goal - to save our marriage. I love you. MogRod, This post of yours touched us all here on the infidelity forum. No matter what, you will be more than okay. Look at this as a process, a marathon. There are no quick fixes, and time is on your side. Jo
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Well, unfortunately, whatever am or am not planning I can't post on here because of prying eyes. That's cool. I just wanted to make sure you were moving forward, trying to get your wife to come to her senses. If there are some men on this board you appreciate, you might ask them if you can email them for support.
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Yea, obviously any plans I may decide to do, I can't post here.
But, I'm still debating whether I will fill you guys in on stuff that has transpired and/or said between us.
Interesting stuff and wouldn't mind getting everyone's take on it outside of my own.
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Yea, obviously any plans I may decide to do, I can't post here.
But, I'm still debating whether I will fill you guys in on stuff that has transpired and/or said between us.
Interesting stuff and wouldn't mind getting everyone's take on it outside of my own. Just thinking out loud... I wonder if there's a way the mods can add an extra layer of security to your thread, like they have for the mod's thread. If not, maybe one of the guys here could start a new thread for you and email you with the info so they wouldn't have to post it here.
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If it's about things you plan on doing in the near future, then I would suggest not saying anything until it comes to pass. Just my opinion.
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I agree, I just noticed that with all this crap going on, magrod and his situation has mainly been getting ignored, i.e., no help for him. I, too, wish the mods could do something. Maybe lock those two out, and not let any new members in to this thread, like they did for the pregnancy one.
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I agree, I just noticed that with all this crap going on, magrod and his situation has mainly been getting ignored, i.e., no help for him. I, too, wish the mods could do something. Maybe lock those two out, and not let any new members in to this thread, like they did for the pregnancy one. That would be cool because I hate to lose everything that's happened in this thread. As much as it's gone against me coming here for advice, support and so on; it still is stuff that is relevant moving forward as you guys know what has happened when giving future advice. Me creating a whole new username and thread, I might lose all that relevant history that was built up in here.
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I've notified the mods to ask them if anything can be done. Keep your fingers crossed.
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Mogrod,
I think you're wise to not post of your plans. Posting things you have already done, and the reactions to them, etc. might prove helpful because you are getting some good advice here.
Your wife and OM are clearly frazzled and worried, as they keep returning to hurl volleys in your direction.
I'm amazed at your clear thinking in the midst of such a circus, and what I know from experience to be true turmoil and pain. You are unbelievably strong.
Not knowing what your plans are or what you've done, I'd just like to echo what others have said; as I see it your top two priorities right now should be:
1. Protect your son
2. Expose!!!
Even if your WW has "exposed" I doubt her message was anything like yours will be. Waywards usually give the message "Our M was over, I've found happiness, share it with me." whereas yours will be more like "I'm saddened to tell you that WW is involved in an affair with OM. I love my wife and am fighting to recover my marriage. I'd greatly appreciate your support of both my WW and myself during this unbelievably painful time."
Pretty different "exposures", huh?
Please see a lawyer about your son, even if you have to beg and borrow the money. It's extremely important. Much more important than recovering your M, even.
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MogRod,
I am a moderator. Please email me asap.
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It is wise to not post as of yet. Seeing how they will try to use this against you.
they might say this site is this and that but its not. There are many success stories here and proven help on here so this site is VERY helpful.
I hope the mods can get something done so that way you can share and receive more advice/wisdom from us here.
Your post that reslient reposted did touch alot of us. You let your self out. This is def a learning post for many as well to see reactions they can incounter in the future with a WS.
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