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The dream police, they live inside of my head. The dream police, they come to me in my bed. The dream police, theyre coming to arrest me, oh no.
You know that talk is cheap, and those rumors aint nice. And when I fall asleep I dont think Ill survive the night, the night.
cause theyre waiting for me. Theyre looking for me. Evry single night theyre driving me insane. Those men inside my brain.
The dream police, they live inside of my head. (live inside of my head.) The dream police, they come to me in my bed. (come to me in my bed.) The dream police, theyre coming to arrest me, oh no.
Well, I cant tell lies, cause theyre listening to me. And when I fall asleep, bet theyre spying on me tonight, tonight.
cause theyre waiting for me. Theyre looking for me. Evry single night theyre driving me insane. Those men inside my brain.
I try to sleep, theyre wide awake, they wont leave me alone. They dont get paid to take vacations, or let me alone. They spy on me, I try to hide, they wont let me alone. They persecute me, theyre the judge and jury all in one.
cause theyre waiting for me. Theyre looking for me. Evry single night theyre driving me insane. Those men inside my brain.
The dream police, they live inside of my head. The dream police, they come to me in my bed. The dream police, theyre coming to arrest me.
BH(me): 40ish FWW:(ILMH) 28yo DS 3yo Married 7yrs Together 10 yrs
??? Spring '07 - Adultery Begins 8/25/07 - 1st D-day (week of our anniv.) 8/07 thru 5/08 - About a dozen D-days/Gaslighting/Flaunting/Fake Recoveries
She finally quit on...
1/1/08 - First real NC attempt(Maybe?) 3/1/08 - Told me OM is an A**hole.(Hope?) 5/3/08 - D-day (Admitted to PA once) 5/4/08 - Latest D-day(Finally confessed to multiple EA/PA in our home) 5/8/08 - Present Struggling to hold on
This next little number is off of "Dark Side of the Moon" by Pink Floyd.
Arguably the best headphone album of all time. (I guess I'm showing my age a bit here...)
This is a song that meant a lot to me as a kid trying to reconcile my grief at my Father's premature death. Sadly it is once again relevant.
Eclipse
All that you touch All that you see All that you taste All you feel. All that you love All that you hate All you distrust All you save. All that you give All that you deal All that you buy, Beg, borrow or steal. All you create All you destroy All that you do All that you say. All that you eat And everyone you meet All that you slight And everyone you fight. All that is now All that is gone All thats to come And everything under the sun is in tune But the sun is eclipsed by the moon.
BH(me): 40ish FWW:(ILMH) 28yo DS 3yo Married 7yrs Together 10 yrs
??? Spring '07 - Adultery Begins 8/25/07 - 1st D-day (week of our anniv.) 8/07 thru 5/08 - About a dozen D-days/Gaslighting/Flaunting/Fake Recoveries
She finally quit on...
1/1/08 - First real NC attempt(Maybe?) 3/1/08 - Told me OM is an A**hole.(Hope?) 5/3/08 - D-day (Admitted to PA once) 5/4/08 - Latest D-day(Finally confessed to multiple EA/PA in our home) 5/8/08 - Present Struggling to hold on
Every time I hear this song it makes me think of everything I put my husband through and how sorry I am...
"Sorry" By Buckcherry
Oh I had a lot to say Was thinking on my time away I missed you and things weren’t the same ‘Cause everything inside it never comes out right And when I see you cry, it makes me wanna die I’m sorry I’m bad, I’m sorry you’re blue I’m sorry about all the things I said to you And I know, I can’t take it back I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds And baby the way you make my world go ’round And I just wanted to say I’m sorry. This time I think I’m to blame It’s harder to get through the days We get older and blame turns to shame ‘Cause everything inside it never comes out right And when I see you cry it makes me wanna die. I’m sorry I’m bad, I’m sorry you’re blue I’m sorry about all the things I said to you And I know I can’t take it back I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds And baby the way you make my world go ’round And I just wanted to sayyyy I’m sorry Every single day I think about how we came all this way The sleepless nights and the tears you cried It’s never too late to make it right Oh yeah, sorryyy I’m sorry I’m bad, I’m sorry you’re blue I’m sorry about all the things I said to you And I know I can’t take it back I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds And baby the way you make my world go ’round And I juuuust wanted to sayyyy I’m sorryyyyyyyoyyyyyy I’m sorry baby I’m sorry baby, Yeah I’m sorry
FWW-28 BH-41(still claiming 34 LOL!) DS-3 D-DAY 05/08 EA 07/07-10/07 PA 10/07-12/07 MARRIED 08/19/2001 ON OUR WAY TO RECOVERY ON MY WAY TO BECOMING A BETTER WIFE
BH(me): 40ish FWW:(ILMH) 28yo DS 3yo Married 7yrs Together 10 yrs
??? Spring '07 - Adultery Begins 8/25/07 - 1st D-day (week of our anniv.) 8/07 thru 5/08 - About a dozen D-days/Gaslighting/Flaunting/Fake Recoveries
She finally quit on...
1/1/08 - First real NC attempt(Maybe?) 3/1/08 - Told me OM is an A**hole.(Hope?) 5/3/08 - D-day (Admitted to PA once) 5/4/08 - Latest D-day(Finally confessed to multiple EA/PA in our home) 5/8/08 - Present Struggling to hold on
I posted a Pink Floyd song NOT Thin Lizzy, but was literally listening to Thin Lizzy on YouTube when you last posted...
Are you psychic or do you have surveillance equipment installed in my home?...
BH(me): 40ish FWW:(ILMH) 28yo DS 3yo Married 7yrs Together 10 yrs
??? Spring '07 - Adultery Begins 8/25/07 - 1st D-day (week of our anniv.) 8/07 thru 5/08 - About a dozen D-days/Gaslighting/Flaunting/Fake Recoveries
She finally quit on...
1/1/08 - First real NC attempt(Maybe?) 3/1/08 - Told me OM is an A**hole.(Hope?) 5/3/08 - D-day (Admitted to PA once) 5/4/08 - Latest D-day(Finally confessed to multiple EA/PA in our home) 5/8/08 - Present Struggling to hold on
Heart of gold but it lost its pride Beautiful veins and bloodshot eyes I've seen your face in another light Why'd you have to go and let it die?
Why'd you have to go and let it die? Why'd you have to go and let it die? In too deep and out of time. Why'd you have to go and let it die?
A simple man and his blushing bride Intravenous, intertwined Hearts gone cold your hands were tied Why'd you have to go and let it die?
Why'd you have to go and let it die? Why'd you have to go and let it die? In too deep and out of time. Why'd you have to go and let it die?
Do you ever think of me? You're so considerate. Do you ever think of me? Oh, so considerate.
In too deep and lost in time Why'd you have to go and let it die? Beautiful veins and bloodshot eyes Why'd you have to go and let it die?
Hearts gone cold and hands were tied. Why'd you have to go and let it die? Why'd you have to go and let it die?
Do you ever think of me? You're so considerate. Did you ever think of me? Oh, so considerate.
In too deep and lost in time Why'd you have to go and let it die? Beautiful veins and bloodshot eyes Why'd you have to go and let it die?
Hearts gone cold and hands were tied. Why'd you have to go and let it die?
Why'd you have to go and let this die? Why'd you have to go and let this die? Why'd you have to go and let this die? Why'd you have to go and let this die?
Why'd you have to go and let it die?
And...
"Blue on Black" by Kenny Wayne Shepard
Nite falls , and Im alone Skin, yeah chilled me to the bone You, turned and you ran, Oh yeah, Oh slipped, right from my hand
Hey Blue on black Tears on a river Push on a shove It dont mean much Joker on jack Match on a fire Cold on ice A dead mans touch Wisper on a scream Doesnt change a thing Dont bring you back Blue on black Oh yeah, blue on black
Blind, oh, now I see Truth, lies, and in between Wrong, cant be undone Oh slipped, from the tip of Your tounge
Hey Blue on black Tears on a river Push on a shove It dont mean much Joker on jack Match on a fire Cold on ice A dead mans touch Wisper on a scream Doesnt change a thing Doesnt bring you back, yeah Blue on black Oh, blue on black Oh, yeah
(solo)
Blue on black Tears on a river Push on a shove It dont mean much Joker on jack Match on a fire Cold on ice Is a dead mans touch Wisper on a scream Doesnt change a thing Dont bring you back Blue on black Oh yeah, blue on black
Hey Blue on black Tears on a river Push on a shove It dont mean much Joker on jack Match on a fire Cold on ice Is a dead mans touch Wisper on a scream Doesnt change a thing Doesnt bring you back Blue on black Oh, blue on black Oh wha oh, blue on black Oh, blue on black
BH(me): 40ish FWW:(ILMH) 28yo DS 3yo Married 7yrs Together 10 yrs
??? Spring '07 - Adultery Begins 8/25/07 - 1st D-day (week of our anniv.) 8/07 thru 5/08 - About a dozen D-days/Gaslighting/Flaunting/Fake Recoveries
She finally quit on...
1/1/08 - First real NC attempt(Maybe?) 3/1/08 - Told me OM is an A**hole.(Hope?) 5/3/08 - D-day (Admitted to PA once) 5/4/08 - Latest D-day(Finally confessed to multiple EA/PA in our home) 5/8/08 - Present Struggling to hold on
Transport, motorways and tramlines Starting and then stopping Taking off and landing The emptiest of feelings Disappointed people clinging on to bottles And when it comes it's so so disappointing
Let down and hanging around Crushed like a bug in the ground Let down and hanging around
Shell smashed, juices flowing Wings twitch, legs are going Don't get sentimental It always ends up drivel
One day I'm going to grow wings A chemical reaction Hysterical and useless Hysterical and ...
Let down and hanging around Crushed like a bug in the ground Let down and hanging around
Let down again Let down again Let down again
You know, you know where you are with You know where you are with Floor collapsing Floating, bouncing back And one day.... I am going to grow wings A chemical reaction Hysterical and useless Hysterical and...
Let down and hanging around Crushed like a bug in the ground Let down and hanging around
"Rather than love, than money, than fame, give me truth"
I suppose I should address this before everyone freaks out. What I neglected to tell everyone is that Disturbed is one of OUR(LaLa and I) favorite bands, that we own all of their CD's, that we have seen them in concert 3 times including being in the front row for one show, that this is one of her favorite songs on the cd too, that we used to sit and listen and sing along to this cd for hours on end.
Since apparently, everyone takes me WAAAAAAY more seriously than I take myself, I have edited the song choice to a more appropriate selection. Sorry for scaring everyone. Enjoy!
Kumbaya
Kumbaya, my Lord, kumbaya Kumbaya, my Lord, kumbaya Kumbaya, my Lord, kumbaya O Lord, kumbaya
The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time I am here still waiting though i still have my doubts I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out
I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing With a broken heart that's still beating In the pain there is healing In your name I find meaning So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on I'm barely holdin' on to you
The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead I still see your reflection inside of my eyes That are looking for a purpose, they're still looking for life
I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing with a broken heart that's still beating In the pain is there is healing In your name I find meaning So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on I'm barely holdin' on to you
I'm hangin' on another day Just to see what you will throw my way And I'm hangin' on to the words you say You said that I will be ok
The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone I may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home
Recovered marriage, recovering self, life gets better everyday
