How long did it take to emerge from The Fog after going NC?
I do not know how to answer this exactly because I was emerging from the FOG as the A started to end. I would say when DH and I started to talk and hang out again before I came home was when I started to come out of it so to say. That was a month or less time frame of coming home. The day DH and some friends helped me pack up a van and UHaul of the stuff I had I never looked back. I never had the urge to contact OM except once to get his parental rights signed over. Even that I didnt talk to him it was his mother. He did contact me some how after number change and being unlisted. I do not know how but he did. I didnt know what to do. I freaked. Then there was the one time driving and I was on my way to pick up DS #1 and saw him. The babysitter said I looked like I saw a ghost. I was just stunned to see him and sick to my stomach.
How does your time in The Fog seem to you now, having emerged from it?
Stupid. I was not me. I thought I could have a life better because here it was someone paying attention I wasnt getting at home and thought it would be great. Because OM wanted to spend time with me. Little did I know he wanted me to be the one to pay ALL bills on my own. Work cook clean. It was ALMOST like my M. I was to proud to leave any sooner then I did. I realized as holidays started to approach how stupid I was. I was between wanting my M back to wanting this OM as well. I remember christmas I spent it with DH but was thinking of OM as well. And it sickened him. Thinking about it now it sickens me. I have only grown stronger since then and will not make the same mistake. Finally in January DH and I started to talk and I started to come around to my H. When he realized how unhappy I really was and how it sickened him to see that I was donating plasma for money he brought me back home. I am greatful now. And I cherish our M more.
