NO COMMENT... to you, Miss Queenie!!

Just another voice crying in the wilderness......



Where are you Queenie??????

SPEAK!!!!!

Oh my goodness gracious, do you ALL have any idea how special you have made me feel. I am so sorry for not being in better contact on here. Thank you for caring. Mimi I am not getting my emails at work just yet because of the servers, hopefully by next.

I have been absolutely swamped in life. Overwhelmed and trying to just get through. The last two weeks of getting ready for school were over 12 hour days and no internet at work to get on to. Every year at this time, the tech dept thinks it's a good idea to muk with our servers. And then at home, I haven't had access because my kids are bored and on the computer.

Wow, I am stunned by your concern, love and frustration with me. I am doing ok. What can I say, there is no news on the M front and I just am doing what I need to do to survive. My kids got their money for their college and my older son unplugged my phone and I didn't know it until you mentioned it that it rings and doesn't answer or something like that, it was turned off and the message place must be picking it up.

Smartie, I don't have my cell phone, I can't afford the bill and you know who isn't caught up on his money or the state, what I did have I had to pay for insurance and food, etc. I'm getting really tired of this.

How's life. I truly apologize for not keeping on here better and ask your forgiveness, this caring whether I am around or not is very new to me and I am deeply touched and very grateful for it.

The truth is I am just running myself ragged to keep from feeling the emptiness and pain of him not being in my life anymore. I guess in a way, I'm trying to just not feel the loneliness and I can't drink, use, or eat, so I found a nitch, keep moving and dont' stop. But I'm not home hardly at all and my boys miss me, not to mention I am mentally and physically exhausted.

The good news is the kids started school today, I have signed up one person in my business and now I can take it more easily, but then there is just that, taking it easily and just being..... I prey for a happy medium. I did go see Shrek the Musical, which was awesome.

I love you guys, each and everyone of you who took time to notice I was gone. I can't express to you what this means. And I will never forget it. So thank you so much.

On one side note about WH, he ran into a friend of mine and very nonchalantly talked about how smart I was and how much better I could do with a new job and better pay and how he always encouraged me to get a better job. That is such a crock. He promised me we would build the Amway business and he would get me free. I hurt for a while on that, but then I realized he wants me to quit and get a better paying job so he doesn't have to give me as much money. Aint' going to work. I would rather struggle and have him hurting than make it easy on him. My momma didn't raise a fool. Plan B is pretty boring, but it's exhausting when you are trying not to feel or learning how to push the pain away by keeping busy.


to every single one of you.. You are a piece of my G-d and there is not a darn thing you can do about it.

Here we sit like birds in the wilderness...





Birds in the wilderness...





Birds in the wilderness....





Here we sit like birds in the wilderness...





Waiting to hear from Queenie...





<Ev'rybody sing it>





Here we sit like birds in the wilderness...





:crosseyedcrazy:





Woof?



I'm here all week.


Don't forget to tip your waitress...

Mark...LOL!

Queenie!!! your back!!! YAY!!!!!!!
NOW its almost like real marriage builders again

for Queenie

Hi Mark,

Yesterday was Elul 1 which begins the 40 day period of preparation for High Holidays.

How are you? How is your life, have you been fishing, playing with your grandaughter? Or do you have more?

Are we getting ready for some football?

Oh Lil, thank you so much. I'm so sorry I didn't stay in touch better. I have certainly had my ups and downs and have really been looking at my situation and deciding where I need to go to move forward. The pain is certainly not there like before, but what is setting in reality that he really may never want to come home and I will have lost what I held most dear. So rather than sit in my pitty potty, keep to the stinkin thinkin, I just pushed forward and buried my feelings in work and keep busy.

I have missed MB so much. It's such a part of my life... So weird, I know.

I know its not what you want to hear but it is awesome you reckonise it.


not to me I am an addict and now I have to log off
Ah well another time

bye Queenie, great to see you

No Lil, it's not what I want to hear. I am moving forward and building a life without him. I can actually seek peaks of him not ever being in it again and then like I turtle I hide my head and don't want to face that real possibiility.

Being addicted to hear isn't so bad. It's the most amazing place I could think of for people who have walked through what we have on here.

Why just look at how many of you were concerned about ME? I'll take this addiction over any other one.

I can quit any time I want...

Really. If I wanted to quit, I would just quit.

I'd just walk away and never look back...

I mean it. If I wanted to leave I would be so outa here...

I'd just stop posting and never even give this place any consideration or thought.

REALLY. I could quit, "Just like that!"

Me addicted?

Must be talkin' 'bout somebody else 'cause I ain't addicted...

:crosseyedcrazy:

Please don't. Your sermons to me have saved my life in so many ways. You stretch my "religiousness" and make it safe for me to explore the messages you send.

Oh, your speakings right now have reminded me, my OS is the on the cover of the district calendar as the Cat in the Hat.. How totally awesome is that, a poster child......

Mark, we need you...

:crosseyedcrazy:

That would be me...... Thank G-d school has started and the little darlings are tucked away from their silly parents and at school with the smart ones...

Do you have any idea how hard it is to make that many consecutive posts in under 5 minutes?