Oh, GG, I'm so sorry to read this. I'm sorry for the pain and confusion you, your girls, and M's family must be feeling right now. Please know my thoughts are with you.

Oh, I am so sorry. It is shocking and unfair.

GG, I am so very sorry for your loss!!

May you keep the hope close to your heart that you will see him again in heaven!

May the Lord bless and keep you in His loving care and grace till that time comes!

Dawn

Greengables, my heart goes out to you. I am so very sorry for your loss.

Greengables, I am so sorry for your loss. You and yr family will be in my prayers...so sorry..

Thank you all. Today is worse in some ways. I'm just so filled with grief.

We were such a good team together. I just know I could get through this so much easier if he were here. I dreamt of him last night. I asked him how long he was going to stay. He said "As long as it takes." I replied "As long as it takes for what?" "To make this permanent." I'm not sure what he meant. I think he meant for me to start living on my own all over again.

They say divorce is like death. I think it may be for those who are still in love with their spouses when the divorce occurs. For me, there is no comparison. My love for B was gone long before I was. M and I were still solidly in the honeymoon period and had been since we started dating. I love him so much and it feels as if my heart has been ripped apart.

I was counting the weeks we were married. Look how well we're doing!! On Saturday, we'll have the funeral at the church where 4 weeks earlier we were married.

Did I mention how M almost cried during the marriage ceremony? I wish we had had longer together.

{{{{{{{{{{{{Greengables}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

I am so sorry. Please lean on God and friends right now. The love your husband showed you will last a lifetime. You WILL see him again.

I'm so sorry I just don't know what to say.

Please don't become bitter like me, it has eaten my soul and you are far too good for that.

Anne, I just realized that I haven't asked what I could do for you. If you need phone calls made, e-mails sent, someone to call and say they care, let me know....cinderella4mb at yahoo.com

So very sorry for your loss, GG. I cannot begin to imagine your loss... and words seem futile.

Oh no.

Please know that our thoughts will be with you.

-ol' 2long

I've been thinking about you all day, Anne of Greengables.

I can't say enough how sorry I am. I'm sorry your time together was cut so short. It's so unfair.

How old was he GG? Still so stunned.

Holding you close

Anne,

I can't quit thinking about you also. I just can't imagine what you are going through. My prayers are with you.

HUGS!
Ronda

Thank you all so much. M had just turned 47. His birthday was the day before our wedding. He figured that way he could remember our anniversary.

Actually I think it just fit into his travel schedule. He loved to go to Europe in October for his birthday.

Today is a very rough day. I actually howled with pain alone in the car. Close to hyperventalating several times. I miss him so much. I need him here with me so much.

Do you have friends/family with you?

Do any of your MB friends live nearby?

-ol' 2long

(((((Greengables)))))

Howl away, GG.

It's okay to grieve in whatever way you need to. There will "time enough" to work through the grief process later.

God bless.

I've been blessed with M's family and my own coming and going.

It helps. We're having the service on Saturday.

Thanks, FH. My priest has been here off and on since yesterday. It's a comfort. It's just so hard to pick out readings when we just picked them out for the wedding. I want to do as much as possible myself. I want to take care of my M. We were a team, you know? We were headed in the same direction.

I can't sleep in our bedroom. I do go into the upstairs bath and sit sometimes. I'm overwhelmed with loss, and feeling very sorry for myself and for M. I know he's in a better place, I just hope he can see China from there. We were planning to go in 2010.

I just pray to be reconciled to God's ways. God's way, not mine. Right now, I still just wish God had seen it my way, and left me M.

(((GG)))

Prayers going up from Texas.

Thank you, Pariah. I don't want to become bitter. M was the best thing that ever came into my life. He was strong and good and generous, and wonderful. I can hold on to the three best years of my life, and know that I had them.

I'll need to get used to being alone again. I'm a little scared of the loneliness.