but I have no idea what to do with it now. I wrote here a few times, because I started out knowing little, and began to learn more. My husband of almost 2 years began seeking out women on the web since 6 days after we were married. I found out through his email about 3 months ago he had been emailing personal ads and one girl in particular, a 19 year old from a neighboring town. So far, I have looked at phone records and saw one number that seemed strange. I called it. It was the one girl he emailed his pictures to. I emailed her. Nothing. BUT I had told my husband I was emailing her. Big mistake. I emailed her again, after I found the phone records, and she emailed me back. I just received it yesterday. She said she had emailed me back from when I first emailed her, and had received a few responses that did not sound like I had written them, i.e. grammar was incorrect, words weren't capitalized, etc. She said she didn't know he was married, that he had begun talking to her through his friend's webpage, they exchanged emails, phone calls, and one night, he picked her up, brought her to our house, they watched a movie, and yes they had sex. She apologized, and said if she had known he was married, she would have stayed away from him. I began seeing a counselor yesterday for all the other stuff I knew about before. Tricky thing is, my husband and I are geograpically seperated due to his service in the military and because we are planning on living where I am living now. We are 3000 miles apart. My doctor said there is not much to be done until he is home for good. So far, he has told me he was going to kill himself, I had to call 911 and have them do a welfare check on him last night, they admitted him, and up til now, I know nothing of what's going on, whether he will be discharged from the military, whether he will continue to see a Dr(he was seeing one for PTSD due to deployment in Iraq twice), I don't know anything. I am unsure of what I want to do now, he doesn't seem to be begging for my forgiveness, only saying that I don't deserve this, and he doesn't deserve me. That I should leave him and get him out of my life, that I should find someone else who would never do this to me again. PLEASE HELP, if you need further info, there are other posts I've written in here. Thanks to anyone who can lend a hand.
