Aug. 14, 2006 3:00 A.M.

We both agreed that your love was gone,
And the best thing for me to do was leave you alone.
Cause you've been able to move on,
And you've found some one new to call your own.

I always thought we'd get through this together
Because I believed our love would last forever.
You said there's no blame to put on you
Because you know this is what God's will is for you
You told me that I should do the samething too
But I couldn't find a way to stop loving you

I just couldn't let go of you in my heart
And over a few years I let it tear me apart
I thought it was love and you
That I was holding on to
But it was the pain and hurt I wouldn't let go of
Long ago I had lost your love
And you can't hold on
To something that's gone

When this became a reality to me
I knew that you coming back and us being happy
Were nothing more than a fantcy
Wake'n up to a morning kiss
And every thing else I knew I would miss
Like you lying in bed next to me
Were all false hopes that would never be

I know false hopes aren't real
But they're a lot better
Than no hope at all makes you feel

This was more than my mind could tolerate
And any thoughts of survival came too late
When your mind is that far gone
Death sounds better than being alone

In the last few minutes of my life
My thoughts were of a happy home and a loving wife
And how hard I had prayed that one simple prayer
And with my gun in my hand and death in the air
I prayed one last time while I was lying there
"The Bible says you heal broken hearts and wounded spirits
I've prayed to you but you didn't hear it
This lonelyness is more than I can bare
God, I've lost it all, where are you, why don't you care"

I heard Him say, "I'm right here and I care about you
Or I wouldn't be here to stop what your planning to do"
Then I felt the touch of His hand as He put it on my heart
And He put back all the pieces that were broken apart.
My tears dried, my mind was clear, my pain was gone
But He didn't want me to be alone
So He stayed and talked to me for a while
And for the first time in years I was able to smile

He said there were some things that I needed to know
About the past and a little about how the future would go
He talked a lot about me and you
And about every thing that we've been through

He said "I have answered both your's and her prayers
I have kept my word because I really do care
Both your prayer and hers were much the same
But neither of you were there when the answer came
I've given you both what you asked of me
But you must be together for this to be
She's in a place where she's being decieved
She may or may not ever leave
I've done all that I can do
Because I gave free will to all of you


If she decides to come back to me, I will lead her back home
If not, I will help you to make it on your own
I waited 60 years for you to listen to me
And for you to be in this place that I wanted you to be
Now I'm asking you to trust in me

If you stay where I've lead you and pray and wait
And if she come's back to me before it's too late
I'll lead you both to the same place
I put the two of you together and I don't make mistakes
And when I answer your prayers, I don't answer them too late.

Marty
Up Date; She never did come back but God kept His promise and He has helped me make it. I've learned that with God in my life I don't need her. Marty