Ok, I have posted here before. Same thing over again.
My H was caught by me ....having cybersex. It threw me over the edge. This is time #3 (as far as I know) that he has emotionally went out of our marriage. He has come home wiht 2 diseases....and still I stayed.

However, I am beginning to dislike him to the point I just want to go away. I truly wanted this marriage....but have recently..in the last few months given up. I don't believe in it....or us.

We have a 4 year old son that is my world. But, he is and has been feeling the friction between my H and I.
He tells me to be nice to his Daddy. Of coarse I am not going to try to explain any of why I am so angered to my son. I just tell him sorry....I will talk softly.

I am really depressed and don't even want to be around my H. My H has made my son so rough and makes it difficult to be around him too.

So, I have told my H that I really am done and want to be done wtih him. But, I am so scared that I cannot make it financially. In the past he threatened me if I told him I wanted a D. But, now he just makes stuff up to hold me there.

I start therapy tonight.....after 6 years of a marriage that sucks.

Is there anything that I can seek out to help me get over the fact I am scared ofut of my mind to be on my own with my son financially?

I feel like I need to come out of my shell. I want to be happy too dangit! I am so tired of this....forgiving and trying again crap.

Thanks.

seek out the facts from a ruthless lawyer. Pay no attention to your sad excuse for a man, husband.

Most lawyers will give you a free 30 minute consultation. Make appointments with several different lawyers. This will give you enough time to ask all your questions as well as give you a chance to interview different lawyers. The laws vary so it's important to know how divorce works in your jurisdiction. Most places lean towards a no fault 50/50 split of assets and certainly your H will be required to pay child support if you have custody.

The finances are what scared me the most at first. It turns out, they are the easiest part of the whole process.

Agreed. Do you have a degree? If not, see about getting a loan (or ex-husband paying for it) for going back to college to get a degree so you can support your son. Get at least a 2-year AA degree; it will raise your income significantly.

Also look for some support groups in your area. Church, women's league, school, library, etc. Go to www.unitedway.org and tell them what you're going through, and they can put you in touch with everything you need.