Hi all-<P>I had left here and said I wouldn't be back. It has been hard-you all were great when I needed someone to talk to. <P>I am back to ask a favor-then I must leave again. If I could be here I would but I can't-that is the only reason I am not still with you all.<P>Please pray for me. I am having a very difficult time with depression right now. This morning as I had my cup of coffee and was looking through the newspaper I read the obituary of a very dear friend of mine. He was only 44 years old, had a wife and four beautiful children. He was killed in a car accident just one mile from his home in Alaska.<P>This is someone I used to live next door to right after I graduated from high school. I cleaned his house, did his grocery shopping and had many good times with him. He worked with my ex H in the woods here in Washington and for years we were good friends. After the ex and I split I thought often about contacting this guy-jsut to say hello, how are ya. I never did because I didn't know how to explain the ex and I parting ways. It wasn't that he wouldn't understand but the facat that it seemed too difficult a task for me to take on. Just last summer I was at a friends house whose H knew this guy also. I asked about him. He didn't have much to say just that things were as they had been. He still lived in Alaska, was married, but now had a son after 3 girls.<P>I wish I had written. My heart feels broken today. I hurt for those he left behind who I know are suffering their loss of a good decent man.<P>Please pray for me. Pray that my life turns around-that I will take the time to do the things I know are most important. Pray that I can stop sinking deeper and deeper into this dark pit. It hurts so much.<P>Thank you all-you are always in my thoughts!!<P>heartache

Heartache,<P>I will be praying for you and your friends' family.<P>Take care,<BR>Mitzi

(((((((((((((Sweetie))))))))))))<P>I am sorry for the pain you are feeling through this loss.....so very sorry...<P>take time now, to appreciate all that you have, as well as those people we have...and to let those that are so very near and dear to you, even those you have not contacted in years, to let them know how you feel about them....it is never too late...<P>learn from the pain....always reach out and say hi!....always let friends know how important they are....each and every one of us could be gone in a heartbeat...<P>contact this man's family, if that will help you, tell them a funny story, or anecdote you remember...this note from you will be treasured in the future...or a letter to each child, about what a great daddy they had....remember the man you knew, and share that man with his family...<P>reach across the miles and help them with their pain....and help yours as well...<P>go give your H a hug....for the man he is, and while you can....tell him how much he means to you....<P>right now, across 1000 miles, I am hugging you, and sending you prayers and blessings....can you feel my arms??<P>I am also going to take the time right here and now to tell you that I love you, and your friendship is so very important to me....that you, almost a total stranger to me in real life, are an integral part of my everyday life....and that you are appreciated...the very fact that you exist on the planet makes my life better, and I am a better person for knowing you....<P><BR>Dylan

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Mitzi-Thanks so much! It means more than you will ever know. Depression is an evil enemy. If your prayers can help me get through the next couple of days I know I will get back to smiling. You are a dear person to take the time to pray for those you do not even know. I appreciate it!!<P>Soulloss-I am so glad you saw this. H called me from work and when he saw how upset I was he suggested I call you. I wasn't so sure I could afford another 2 hour phone call to you I hurt so bad. I have cried buckets. I told H I am so tired of hurting. I feel so very very exhausted from the last 8 months. Why wouldn't God take me instead of someone that I am sure was more than willing to remain on earth a bit longer? I have felt for 8 months that it would be easier to die than deal with what life has dealt me since last June. I know-I am truly on the pity pot. I am just not healing quickly . I do not suffer well DYLAN-I too love you. And oh how I wish you were closer so that I could pick up the phone each and every time I needed to hear a true friends voice! You have been a true insight-a true example of what a "real" friend is all about. Please pray-pray hard. I need to hang on tighter than ever. I appreciate your being there for me-all the time and anytime.<P>heartache<P>"I could have missed the pain but I'd have had to miss the dance.

NSR-<P>Thank you so very very much. I hope that your prayers are my link to healing and dealing with this. My son just called and as I told him about it-this was someone from when son was pretty young-he said "Mom, I can't talk to you any more. You almost have me in tears". Poor kid-they never can stand to see mom crying.<BR>I hope life is treating you well. I know my life could be much worse. Today is jsut a bad day for me while I grieve for "the good old days".<P>Thanks again-it means a whole lot!!!!<P>heartache

Heartache,<P>My heart goes out to you and I will keep you in my prayers. I pray that the joy of the Lord will overwhelm you. I know the tribulation of this life seems so hard to carry sometimes. But you don't have to carry this load alone. Cast your burdens upon the Lord for he cares. I hope you can find some peace and comfort knowing that yo will always have friends to lean on. That's what friends are for right. Be encouraged. I hate to hear that you are so down.<P>Take Care....<P>------------------<BR>"If you can learn from the mistakes of others, you won't have to make them youself."<P>lady_divine77@yahoo.com

Heartache,<P>a totally selfish answer to your question...<P>God didn't take you yet because she knows that I still need you....and so do your kids and your H....<P>We haven't learned all we need to from each other yet..you have just begun to teach me what friendship is all about.....remember how I hide?, slink away when I'm feeling like I'm on the pity pot???.....YOU taught me that a true friend is still there, and patiently waits....<P>remember the e-mail about gratitude?....I'll bet your friends wife is grateful he was around long enough to give life to 4 beautiful children that will always remind her of the love they shared....grateful that he was not taken sooner....grateful that he was taken quickly, that neither she nor the children had to watch a long, drawn out illness.....grateful to have loved, and have been loved....<P>we all get down.....we get depressed...the past 8 months have been a rollercoaster from hell....this news today just adds a 'downslope' to the ride.....<P>perhaps the purpose of it is to teach us what to be grateful for, and what to appreciate...<P>ps: don't call me if you can't...I could not deal with the guilt of you having to re-mortgage your house for a phone call!!....just feel my psychic vibes....<P><BR>Dylan

Jamie-Lee,<P>Thanks for the prayers and the time taken to remind me that I do have friends to help me over this new hump. I appreciate knowing someone cares!<P>heartache

DYLAN-<P>I know why I like you so much. You always know jsut what to say!! You have been a knight in shining armour for me. Every time I crawl into a dark space you bring a light to help me find my way back out.<P>I wish I hadn't ever been so smart assy about the "things I am grateful for". <P>But as always you have shown me the way-the real way. It is a blessing he at least got to spend time-healthy time-on earth with his kids and wife. It is even better that he didn't suffer from cancer or some other dreadful illness.<P>Thank you again-for being there always. Just don't forget where to go when you need a lending hand!<P>heartache