I was surprised today when I got a message that my ex needed to talk a couple things over with me tomorrow at lunch. For the life of me I cant figure out what. I called him back and said if the meeting was to tell me face to face, he has been with another woman and I could move on now, to not do it. I cannot take anymore hurt here. Believe me, I am on the verge of a breakdown, and he has the power to push me there.<P>He promised last weekend he would not talk to me anymore unless he had nice things to say. Just cant imagine what that would be. I have been literally sick with worry that he will hurt me again. So I sent him an email a few minutes ago explaining my situation and begged him to not hurt me with hurtful words again. It's only been a week since I talked with him, so I know there has not been some miraculous change there. I still been praying about us and trying real hard to keep the faith, but can tell you Satan has been working overtime on my imagination.<P>Say a prayer for me tonite please.<P>Bluestar<P>

You are in my prayers. Be strong.<P>Lori