Here is the first draft of my PBL. I would appreciate any comments or suggestions.
Dear WW,
This is the hardest letter that I have ever had to write because I never wanted this to happen. I will miss the woman that I fell in love, married, and raised three wonderful children with. I will miss you being the first person I wanted to see in the morning and last person I wanted to kiss goodnight. I know that we can fix our marriage if only given a chance. I have read multiple books on this subject and that has helped me truly see how we can improve our marriage. I know that you are afraid that our marriage is going to parallel your parents but that just isn’t true. Like I told you before, I do not want you to come back to the same old marriage – I want our marriage to be something new and better. There are so many things that we could do to improve our marriage. You always say that you know what I want, all I want is for you to be happy and that you will give our marriage a true second chance. I told you that I will always love you until the day I die and I truly mean that.
In order to keep my love for you alive, I can no longer maintain contact with you. I am not doing this out of anger or to be vindictive. I am doing this to protect myself and the children from any more pain. Turning away from you is one of the most heart wrenching decisions that I have ever had to make. And I know in my heart that it didn’t have to be this way.
However, until you are ready to end your relationship with OM, I will not attempt to see you or talk to you. If you need to contact me about the children please relay the message through your Mom or sister and I will do the same. I have begun the process of putting up a protective wall around myself. You said that I had all the power and this is the toughest decision that I have had to make without my buds input. But I believe it is the best decision for all of us, DS, the girls, you and me.
If you want, I will help you move your stuff out on the 1st. You will need to have the rest of your stuff out by the 6th. This is not the path that I wanted our relationship to take but in the end I believe it is in the best interest of everyone. As I told you last week, I am willing to wait for you and the door to our home will remain open.
