You are Oh so correct on that. I will not settle and have been through so much turmoil (and abuse it was). I wasn't sure I had the energy for this recovery in me at all. That is why I took the break from all of this. I read the outcome of your thread with the OW. That was actually good because you ended up facing off against her together. Teamed up. I am dealing with my H's pride and a small amount of fog. He may be or not be capable of loving me and caring for my needs the way I would like him to. That remains to be seen. I can't honestly remember much about how we were prior to "d" day. It's very vague. I went through so much emotional trauma that I can't remember . . . it may be a good thing because I can't have that back anyway . . . I kept proclaiming that I wanted my h back the way he was. People have told me that was only an illusion anyway. SO . . . I will now keep the intel as it is, wait to hear if anything happens on her side and keep reading MB's for advice on recovery.

Strange thing happened . . . somehow my H. found this site and my postings. He was very surprised to read my posts and what my feelings were. I think we may be getting somewhere? We are starting with the ENQ and talking about our relationship as it is and going into the future. I think I am safe to go over to the Recovery thread for more information. Thanks For everyones advice and support over here!