I see you married to a kid. He wants to be a 14 year old too much. He hasn't got it out of his system yet, and being around family only accentuates the issue.

You said it. Someone once told me I'm not a married mother of two, I'm a single mother of three..

Right now, that's exactly how I feel.

The first few years weren't like that though. We would go out and all, but it was a grown-up version of that. We would have a drink, discuss life, so on and so forth..

It's like he's going through his version of a MLC, except that he is only 24.

I KNOW that his family definitely provokes the issues. None of this "MLC" started until his brother announced his Big D and moved back home to Mommy and Daddy's house. It's like my BIL thinks "Well, I'm single now.. And you're my twin, so we've gotta do everything alike.. Jump on up on this bandwagon!"

And.. My H seems to halfway wanna join..

I know he isn't COMPLETELY gone.. Because he is still here. He still partakes in our family. He still 'tries' in his own, half-a@@ way..

But I just don't feel like it's enough.

I do have to give him this - he is slowly getting better. There is no more secrecy. I know for a fact that he isn't getting online anymore or talking to anyone that I don't know.

He is helping out with the kids more. His patience with them is growing.

So I'm trying to stick it out a little longer here in Plan A-Ville.

Two weeks today. Longest two weeks of my entire life.

Hopefully I can slowly bribe him back to this M, and maybe, just maybe, one day he will see what he did.