Talked with H again today. I can't do this anymore I keep trying and trying and in the end all I am doing is pushing him away and right to her. I couldn't help it. I just wanted to know that there is maybe a little hope. He says he still loves me and that it hurts him to think of losing me but that is not enough for him to want to try. He still wants to talk to the OW and I can't do anything about it. I need to just let this take it's course and if he ever wants to come back be here to accept him if I still want him. I have lost all hope.<BR>I am getting ready to start my plan B letter, I don't even know where to begin.<BR>We are going to tell the kids tonight. I was so hoping that they would never have to know. I hope they do ok. I am afraid that I will break down in front of them so I need to stay focused and strong.<BR>So I love him...I will let him go. I hope and pray he will find his way back to my loving arms.<BR>One day I hope to be able to post advise on here instead of always asking...<BR><P>------------------<BR>Jaded Heart<BR>____________<P> <BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><HR>and if I shed a tear I won't cage it<BR>I won't fear love<BR>and if I feel a rage I won't deny it<BR>I won't fear love<HR></BLOCKQUOTE><BR>"Fumbling Towards Ecstasy"<BR>Sarah Mclachlan<P><BR>

My prayers are with you. He has told you he still loves you. Perhaps Plan B will get his attention.