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I feel like I am standing on a fence trying to keep my balance.
On one side of the fence is my husband. The one who has hurt me so many times. The one who has had two As. The one who just came home from Iraq a different person. A person who pushes me away and rejects me.
On the other side of the fence is a future without him. Me living for myself for once in my life. Putting myself first instead of him and his Army career.
So which side of the fence do I jump to?
I am leaning towards the other side, a life without him. But for some reason, I cant make the jump. Maybe I'm not ready to let go.
But then why would I stick around and wait for him to come around, not knowing if he will? Why keep trying when he is unwilling? Why keep going back to heartache?
I miss the man I once knew... the man he was before the Army and Iraq.
It's so hard to know which way to go.
Last edited by armywifie; 05/13/09 10:30 PM.
Me,BS age 24
WH age 23
DD age 3,DS age 2
WH deployed March '08-March '09
4 affairs
Plan A/B~complicated
I filed D 8/4/09
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It's like a sickness...sometimes it's an addiction to them that we need to get over. Why on earth would you want to be with a serial cheater that rejects you! We all miss the person we once knew, or thought they were, but if that person no longer exists, what are you hanging around for? BTW, have you gone through all of the steps Dr. Harley recommends?
Enacting life's lessons into positive change... .
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Me,BS age 24
WH age 23
DD age 3,DS age 2
WH deployed March '08-March '09
4 affairs
Plan A/B~complicated
I filed D 8/4/09
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Me living for myself for once in my life. Sometimes that's the best thing. I always recommend that men AND women live alone before marrying just to learn to be ok with themselves. If you don't do this, if you jump right into marriage, you instantly go from being mom and dad's kid to husband/wife's spouse. So who are YOU? You probably don't know. Thus the hesitation. What is he doing to make up for the affairs?
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Plan A, then Plan B, Reading the helps on this site, like, Surviving an Affair, His Needs Her Needs, Lovebusters...
Enacting life's lessons into positive change... .
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