Just an update.
My first big test on keeping my mouth shut and not getting upset happened on sunday morning and i passed with flying colours

H had planned to go play golf. I wanted to go to a shopping centre which is about 30 miles away. I asked him if he wasnt going to play golf (weather was terrible) would he come with me to the shopping centre,i only wanted him to come with me because i wasnt sure how to get there, at first he said no, i am not going there today its too late, (it was only 2pm.) not today maybe some other time (now usually i would get upset) and i still did feel upset but i didnt show it, i was thinking to myself that he had no problem jumping through hoops whenever his friends call but when i ask him to do one thing, straight away i get a resounding NO, I went upstairs and calmed myself down. and didnt LB.

I went back downstairs and carried on chatting to him as if nothing happened, half an hour later he came into the kitchen and told me if i wanted to go then he would come with me. At this stage i was upset that he said no in the first place but i didnt show it, i thought to myself that he had made an effort and that it would be some time spent together alone so i said thank you i appreciate that you will come and off we went. We had a pleasant evening after that and it made me think about how i have been contributing in the tit for tat fighting that has been going on between us and the negative way that i usually react to him. A good lesson for me.

weight watching going really well