Who am I <BR>What do I want from life<BR>Will God accept me back <BR>Can I ever be fatithful<BR>Can I ever have respect for myself<BR>Would a good mom have an affair<BR>Would a christian cheat<BR>Can I ever be around om again and not feel lost<BR>Why is DR. Harley's book missing from my house<BR>Should I give up on men and become a lesbian<BR>both H and om says this would be great as long as i video taped it so they could have something to watch.<BR>I have no desire become a lesbian yet<BR>I am so tired do I ever get to sleep again or is the guilt from the affair going to last a lifetime. It's been five months.<BR>How come It is now all about me cheating and not his abuse.<BR><p>[This message has been edited by unforgiven (edited November 07, 1999).]

Here ... I'll answer these questions. I'm feeling pretty full of myself today! LOL<P>Who am I - God's precious child<BR> <BR>What do I want from life - Joy, Peace, Happiness<P>Will God accept me back - Most certainly. Remember the "prodigal son".<BR> <BR>Can I ever be fatithful - yes, with God's help.<P>Can I ever have respect for myself - yes, in time.<P>Would a good mom have an affair - yes, I'm one too.<P>Would a christian cheat - yes, I'm one too.<P>Can I ever be around om again and not feel lost - <BR>don't ever be around him again. <P>Why is DR. Harley's book missing from my house -<BR> I believe the dog ate it. Buy a new one.<P>Should I give up on men and become a lesbian - no, blech<P>both H and om says this would be great as long as i video taped it so they could have something to watch.-<BR> Men are idiots.<P>I have no desire become a lesbian yet - this is a good thing<P>I am so tired do I ever get to sleep again or is the guilt from the affair going to last a lifetime. It's been five months.<BR>How come It is now all about me cheating and not his abuse. <P>Because YOU did something that can is a tangible act that blame can be placed on. His abuse may not "look" like abuse from where he stands (or others stand). But your affair LOOKS and SMELLS like an affair ... make sense?<P>I'm sorry you're hurting. There are many of us here that are in the same boat. Keep posting and keep reading. We're here for you!<p>[This message has been edited by Maya (edited October 21, 1999).]

I am so sorry for the pain you are experiencing. We are here to help you and we really do care about you.<P> <BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><HR>Who am I<HR></BLOCKQUOTE>You are a wonderful creation from God who is priceless in His eyes.<P> <BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><HR>What do I want from life<HR></BLOCKQUOTE>Don't know about you but I want to love and be loved. <P> <BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><HR>Will God accept me back<HR></BLOCKQUOTE>ALWAYS! He gave His only son for you. We all have fallen short of His glory, and He is waiting for you with open arms.<P> <BR> <BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><HR>Can I ever be fatithful<HR></BLOCKQUOTE>Yes, of course you can. We know it's hard and the temptation is there, but you can have a wonderful loving marriage.<P> <BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><HR>Can I ever have respect for myself<HR></BLOCKQUOTE>Yes. You have to forgive yourself first. And you have to recognize it takes a long time to be the person you want to be.<P><BR> <BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><HR>Would a good mom have an affair<HR></BLOCKQUOTE>My wife is a wonderful mother, I couldn't ask for a better mother of for our kids. She had an affair. Don't let this destroy you. You made a bad choice. It's time to start over.<P> <BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><HR>Would a christian cheat<HR></BLOCKQUOTE>My wife is a christian too. Christians aren't immune to sin. We all sin. As Jesus said to the adulterer "Go and sin no more".<P><BR> <BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><HR>Can I ever be around om again and not feel lost<HR></BLOCKQUOTE>Don't ever go around the OM again. Remove him rom your life forever.<P> <BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><HR>Why is DR. Harley's book missing from my house<HR></BLOCKQUOTE>Maybe your husband took it. Let's hope who ever did is reading it.<P> <BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><HR>Should I give up on men and become a lesbian<HR></BLOCKQUOTE>NO!!! More sin will not make anything right.<P> <BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><HR>both H and om says this would be great as long as i video taped it so they could have something to watch.<HR></BLOCKQUOTE>Don't know exactly what you are refering to, and maybe I don't want to know. <P> <BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><HR>I have no desire become a lesbian yet<HR></BLOCKQUOTE>Good!! Don't become one!!<P> <BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><HR>I am so tired do I ever get to sleep again or is the guilt from the affair going to last a lifetime. It's been five months.<HR></BLOCKQUOTE>Try some anti depressants - they do help. You need rest and strength to get over this. This is the toughest thing a human has to endure. We are here for you.<P> <BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><HR>How come It is now all about me cheating and not his abuse.<HR></BLOCKQUOTE>It sounds like there are many problems to overcome on both your parts. get counseling for both of you ASAP. You both can heal from this and you both can be happy together.<P>Best wishes to you.<P>SHA