Background on my story: WH fell for OW. Is there hope for me?

There's so much I want to write, so much in my mind...but I'm so confused, scared, iterally drained, mad and dissapointed at myself. For the first time in my life, I thought about killing myself.
Since D-Day (Dec 25), WH has not changed his intention get a divorce. Said he's sorry, etc but he's basically refused to even consider staying in this marriage because he has been unhappy for a long time. We currently slept in separate rooms until we (more like 'he', as I didn't want to agree) worked out the detail on divorce.

Sorry Kprisca, I'm where you are too, but you are in the best place possible. I learned today what kind of impact that exposure can have. Have u read all the info on this site? Have you exposed the A to his family, coworkers and friends and to hers?
I know how scary and devastating it is and am working on picking myself up too. You aren't alone. Read all the info on here order the SAA book and expose!

Find the "Carrot and Stick" post; it is Plan A. Once you read all the info you can on this site, follow it and expose the A.

Krispa,
This is depression speaking. You need to seek professional help.

Gg

We had a huge blow out. I knew I was doing major LBs, but I didn't care. I was so so angry at him accusing me not letting him be happy. WH was packing his stuff to leave, I felt there's no reason to continue. I did doubled the dosage of my meds, so I could sleep and not see him leave. But I forgot I hadn't eeaten anything, he said I was out of it and got him worried. He stayed, for now. Funny in a way, he got me a book "Peaks and Valleys, Insight on how to survive". Only got to chapter 3. Very good book...though I think he needs to read it more than I do. But the book reaffirmed why I'm still fighting, and he can't make me feel guilty for being 'relentless' for doing 'God's work. But I do have to work on my acceptance that God has His timing and I can't rush that.

My apology for multiple posts....I wrote this one last night,didn't realize that I hit 'Submit'. Probably should be closed by Mods??

Why haven't you exposed his affair?

kpriscia, try to keep your posts to one thread so MBers reading this do not have to go back and forth.

Please call your doctor tomorrow about your depression.

Do not use your depression to try and make your H feel sorry for you. He will begin to feel trapped and want out even sooner.

Expose. Please listen to the veteran MBers here.

God bless.

I've told my family and some of our mutual friends.
Before finding out his A, he already told his family we're heading for a divorce, told them he hasn't loved me for years for couldn't leave me while I was struggling with depression.
I know that they already told WH that he's too nice of a guy for putting up with me (depression, financial support) etc for years. I'm not sure if exposure would do anything other than making them believe it must've been so bad that their son was so unhappy that he'd committed adultery. If anything, they might see divorce will free their son from living a lie.
AM I making sense?? Or...over-analyzing things?

I realized this can be confusing...I'll stick to my original post:)

Look. The program here works. It stops affairs. It gets people having affairs to give up the affair, and once that happens, the 'fog' clears from their head and they MAY come back to the marriage.

But they will NEVER come back to the marriage if you don't stop the affair.

PLEASE don't make the mistake of thinking you know what his family knows or thinks. And please don't let HIM be the one who TELLS them what's going on! What do you think he'll tell them? "Mom, Dad, Sis, I decided kprisca wasn't sexy enough for me any more and I deserve more sex than one woman can give me anyway, so I've been screwing my secretary for the past year. I think I'm tired of kprisca anyway, so I think I'm gonna throw her away."

No. He'll say "Guys, kprisca is a witch; she MADE me find someone else who would give me the love I deserve."

That is why YOU have to call them up and tell them that he has been cheating on you for the last year and he is now blaming the whole thing on you so HE looks good.