My W broke my heart two days ago on our 14th WA. I cried. She said "See that's how I felt for two years" well she cried too but not as much as me!! She hasn't called since. <BR> I went out tonight by myself to a bar. Not to "Score" I just wanted to get OUT instead of waiting for the CALL THAT NEVER COMES (or feels as good as I PRAY it will.) <BR> I danced with a REALLY nice looking (much younger than W) woman. OH MY GOD DID IT FEEL GOOD!! She was the FIRST woman I've danced with other than my W in 14 YEARS!!! Let me say again, OH MY GOD DID IT FEEL GOOD!!! Did I mention that it felt good? BTW I hardly drank. <BR> Sorry, but this is the first sign of LIFE I've had in 2 months!! She had a boyfriend and a 3yr old so I told her to get home and be a good girl. But my ego is feeling a little, no a LOT better. W has made me feel like such a loser. CASTRATED is more like it!!<BR> <BR>Hey, she's LIVING with a 60 yr old man (no sex?? ya, right he listens RIGHT!!) SHE FEELING SOOOO GOOD at MY expense, right? She's "finding herself". Why not me? I only WISH she could have seen it because this woman had more moves than <BR>EX-LAX!! Sexy as HE**! I had a grin to beat them all too!!<BR> OK, I love my W but I may enjoy this "finding myself SH***" of her's.<BR> Please post even if you usually don't I want as much feedback as possible on this one. <BR>P.S. Did I mention that it felt...... FRANK<P>------------------<BR>desperate<P>

PH,<P>Bud, get a grip. What you experenced is a temporary high. You will be sober very soon. I had an old GF call me most recently out of the blue and felt the same way. BUT I WANT MY W BACK. Nice to hear you had a good time, but, you WILL be thinking of your W very soon if not now.<P>You have just been introduced to the roller coaster ride that we are all riding. You will be on this trip for what seems to be forever. What you do next will fulfill your destiny. Think carefully about this. I jumped the gun and filed for divorce and think I may have screwed this up. <P>STOP AND FIND WHAT YOU WANT OUT OF LIFE.<P>Wishing us all the Best.<P>Medic, Yeah I'm still here.

Thanks Medic, you're probably right. I know (at least now) she doesn't care WHAT I do. If she saw me with AW it would probably ease her guilt. And in the past, she accused ME of cheating (which I nver did) so she'll just add that to the list of lies she's telling OM. <BR> I DO want my marriage back, but now I will expect MORE from her end. I want it like it WAS in the begining.<BR> I guess I want us to "fall in love" with each other again.<P>------------------<BR>desperate<P>