Well, just simply I thought I could disengage from here. I can't tho.

There are too many people here who are hurting and too many people who have helped me. I just wish that I could get the courage to help those who are hurting. Since I honestly admit that I am not an expert in Dr. Harley's treatment I hesitate.

Char got the greatest news today in that after taking her to the assisted living facility last week, she called her bother today and the response is good. He administers her trust fund from her parents. Obviously this is different from what most of you have experienced. It simply means that, at her age of 65 this coming July, it was unanticipate that she would need this kind of care this early. As much as I love her, I cannot support two households..meaning two living facilities. So we do need her funds as well as some of mine, and then she perhaps will have to apply for Medicaid. But in the meantime, she is so happy now that this is a possibility. If you can belive, she asked the counselor there if I can spend weekends there and the answer is yes.

There is still lots to do, but this is so encouraging.

I had her here on Tues., and I took her for breakfast and then I grilled my hamburgers which she loves. Before we left for me to take her back she wanted to make out and we really did. I still have images and memories of her relationship but I could not resist her. Period.

Today I bought some more indoor plants for the front window and told her and I am going to bring her here next week again for her to see. She loves plants and flowers and I know she will enjoy.

I am not being that cautious or protective of my heart anymore.

Pepperband. I will say this now in front of everyone, I know that I have insulted you and belittled you. Up until now, my mind has been defensive. That is no excuse, and I do apologize.

The true reason that I decided to post here again is that simply this is now my lifeline. I told Char about this site and she wants to see it. She is not computer literate, but I do feel I want to show her, and if she wants to post I will help her with that w/o reading anything she would post at all and I would give her her privacy on here.

I need to tell you all that I am really disappointed in NLG in not staying here even tho maybe hard to accept the truth. Each person tho I think is their own guardian angel.

Tom

I am glad you are staying!