today has been a day full of triggers. My WH had an EA with neighbor and I posted yesterday was tothe day 3 weeks post D day. At three weeks past d-day, you sound as if you are coping as well as could be expected.
I had to run errands today and I must have passed about 5 mini vans that are like the OW's and then I had to pass her going the opposite direction as icing on the cake. I know that my sound crazy but they used the van as their place to have intercouse.
I am not sure if I need to see my dr for help or just take the time. I do not want to be on medication but I do have attacks where I have a hard time breathing and I am not able to sleep or eat well yet. Please see your doctor. You need something like Paxil or Lexapro to calm you down. Also, if you are having trouble sleeping at night, you should take Tylenol PM, Ambien, or Simply Sleep. My counselor told me that I absolutely had to get a good night's sleep to be able to function in my fractured world the next day.

How do you know if you need to seek medical hel?p? I do not feel like harming myself or the OW. I am not on that level but I am so up and down emoionally and I ajust want to feel normal again.. hatever that means. Brace yourself for the long haul ahead. It will be quite a while before you feel "normal" again--except it won't be the old normal.
My additional struggle is my WH is living in another state due to work and when he is away my anxiety level is off the charts. When we are together I am much more calm and not feeling lost.Isn't it ironic that the very person who hurt you the most is the one you need to comfort you. I remember calling my H at work and saying that he needed to come home because I could not breathe and actually felt almost paralyzed. That, my friend, is the effect of being traumatized.
We will be together bfor good within the next 2 weeks as I am moving our immediate needs out of our current home and leaving for his apt. Our house is for sale but the mkt is very slow so we could be in for a long haul with being connected to this street. I'm so glad that you are moving away from a place with bad memories. I am so glad to have a place to feel that I am not feeling alone in my mixed up thoughts. You are not alone. We've all been where you are, and it will get better. If you can go five minutes at this point without thinking about the affair, you are ahead of the game. Good luck.