and left messages all weekend, and thought i was just mad at him and not answering the phone. i guess i can believe him...but his phone never worked when he was with OW, either, so it is really hard to buy this.<BR>thanks to lucks and sosad for the input about hormones, men with new babies, and unworking phones. yes, i'm still all hormonal and healing. ugh (losing weight, at least!).<BR>the thing is, i have just been at the end of my rope with H for SO LONG. why? because i feel like second prize. he would tell me this is all in my mind, and point out that he is HERE, not THERE, and that he is nothing if not nice and polite to me..<BR>yeah, it is a lot in my heart, i just WON'T let him back in. I don't trust him, i hate him for what he did, i don't want to be with someone who could do that (ahem, to my lurking H, yes, i admitted to my NON-PHYSICAL, SHORT TERM, ENDED when you discoved it, internet affair, that i had when you were still with her and had moved out with no explanation).<BR>I just have nothing left to give him.<BR>does it ever come back? i can't imagine ever loving him again, to be honest, and that doesn't even hurt (and yes, i have been taking my antidepressants).<BR>I thoght this was suppsosed to get better with time? it seems to be getting worse....