Hi all,

Just got out of the VA hospital, things got too much and I needed help. I've had PTSD issues for years, that and my current situation I finnally got some of the help that I need. I can sleep without nightmares now, I used to have to change the linen a couple times a week (night sweats). Different meds are making all the difference (That and being locked on a psych ward).

My relationship is still in jeopardy, and I still want to make it work. She still is not sure want she wants to do, all I can do is keep trying to make her see that I can do better that I know how wrong I was. She still is spending time with this other guy, but she says nothing is going on. All I can do is believe. Just like her I have to have faith if we are going to work things out.

I do love her and the kids and I want/need them in my life.

Anyway, in a better place now. Still stressed but at least it is managable. I wish I could go back and have made myself get help sooner, but I can't. So all I can do is show her that things can be better, and it is not too later

Thanks,

Jason

Jason,

I am glad that you are better and on appropriate meds. I hope it helps you with this relationship, but in any event it will help you will life.

God Bless,

JL

Thanks JL,

Looks like everthing is still going down the tubes still. I've done a 180 as far as my anger issues, don't matter I guess. She is really "fogged" up right now. I learned the last time it's no good to try and work for something if only one half is doing so.

I don't know how I'll afford to live on my own. I love where I work, I took the pay reduction cause I needed to "like" what I was doing.

I may just try to get put on active duty orders for a while. Then I can stay in the barracks at least.

Just don't know right now.

anyway....

Thanks,
Jason