On Wednesday night, I confessed to my husband about my affair that lasted over 6 months. The affair is over now, and I know for certain that I want a great relationship with my husband of almost 10 years.

For those of you who have been in my position, having to fess up to grave errors, I know you will understand when I say that I'm in the "post-vomit stage" of this process. Similar to when you are physically ill and experience pain leading up to the purging, you feel a sense of relief yet sickness following. That is where I am at right now. I released the burden of keeping this affair secret, but I feel ill still.

My sweet, loving, kind husband was blindsided by what I shared with him. He is a man of incredible integrity. How could I betray him like this? How could I have been so selfish? Why didn't I go about trying to fix things in our relationship prior to letting myself enter into another relationship? It's a battle and I continue to cling to God, who I know will provide the strength I need through this process.

I've been listening to Christian music again. This song is one of my favorites:



I also like this song because it reminds me that no man is going to give me the fulfilling love that I seek. God is the only one who can provide that, and my heart is genuinely seeking His will for the first time in my life:

It is better if you keep all your posts on one thread....I suggest you cut and paste this latest post and put it on your original thread.

Vets will be along to advise you.