Thank you all for your thoughts. I understand the power of strength and support. I feel overwhelmed by responses from everyone including family, friends and therapists so support suits me well right now. I know I have a long road to travel, but which is the right path to choose? I initially felt I could get past the betrayal and that is what I wanted. Yes, I still love my husband. You can't wipe away 10 years. But facts are facts, he lied, cheated and took my love down. Without thought to me and our families. Now I'm left with deciding to live with him, his crazy ow and his [censored] child. And financial responsibilities to someone I'll never know or care for. Or live without? The possibilities of what I though I had with him: shared dreams, mutual respect, love and generosity, truth, honesty. I know it is out there, possibly with him but the baggage???<P>And yes, the HIV tests were negative. The first round that is. <P>Thanks again for your thoughts. I look forward to reading more on the site and hearing from you again.

Life: I am so sorry for your pain and so sorry you are here experiencing the same situation I am in. There are a few of us here in the same predicament...our own infamous forum within a forum.<BR>I completely understand your feelings and heartache and wish these things would go away for you. Please read my earlier posts since last May when I first came here. It's an incredible journey of hope, recovery and forgiveness and of reconcilliation.<BR>My wish for you is to take it slow and carefully examine the pros and cons before you do anything final. God bless and comfort you.